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[♪ soft upbeat music playing]

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- [phone chiming]
- Send text to Tyler.

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[automated voice]
<i>What would you like to say?</i>

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Hi, exclamation point.

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I just arrived,
exclamation point.

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- [phone chiming]
<i>- Your message to Tyler says,</i>

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<i>"Hi! I just arrived!"</i>

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- Send.
<i>- Okay.</i>

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- [text whooshing]
<i>- Message sent.</i>

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- [pen scribbling]
- [phone chiming]

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<i>Tyler says,
"Glad you arrived safely."</i>

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<i>- Would you like to reply?</i>
- [phone chiming]

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<i>Tyler says, "Thank you
again for being there."</i>

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[phone chiming]

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<i>Tyler says,
"I'm so grateful for you."</i>

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<i>- Would you like to reply?</i>
- No.

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- [phone chiming]
<i>- Okay.</i>

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[dog barking]

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[growling]

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[dog continues barking]

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- [hawk screeching]
- [dog shrieks]

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[gate opening]

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[suitcase wheels rattling]

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[knocking]

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[exhales sharply]

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[knocking]

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- [one knock]
- Oh! Hey, hello.

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- Hi, Mrs. Patterson, I'm...
- This plant shouldn't be dying.

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I just bought it two weeks ago.
It's unbelievable.

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All the leaves keep falling off.

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Should I come in?

32
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Well, I didn't slam
the door on you.

33
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It's a succulent,
for God's sake.

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Shouldn't be dying.

35
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I've done nothing wrong,
that's for sure.

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We take our shoes off
in this house.

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- Sorry.
- Everything out there is dirt.

38
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Yeah, a-and cold. [chuckles]

39
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Where is that "dry heat"
you hear so much about?

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- What was your name again?
- Jamie.

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Here, we say our first
and last name.

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Sorry. Jamie Simms.

43
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Well, I'll probably have
to ask you your name again.

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Just know that.
I can't apologize for it.

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I've got a lot going on.
And now, with you here.

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I completely understan... d.

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[sighs]

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[birds cawing]

49
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I'm sorry, I wasn't sure
if you wanted me to follow you.

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- I don't know what's happening.
- [sighs] I know.

51
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- It's a very unusual situation.
- It's all starting to rot.

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[sighs]

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It's possible
it's being overwatered.

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[sighs]

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- It could also be under-watered, so that's...
- I'll tell you one thing

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I did do wrong.
I trusted Doris Kato.

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Friend from New York.
She raved about this nursery,

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which, of course, she did.
Her cousin opened it.

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A cousin, by the way, no one's
ever even heard of until now.

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A Sue or a Veronica or Patty.
I don't fucking know.

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I wasn't listening.
She went on and on and on.

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"I'm so proud of my cousin.
She's starting over.

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We should really support her."

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Well, I'm sorry, but clearly,
Sue-Veronica-Patty

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needs to start over again.

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Well, I can take it back
if you'd like.

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Why?

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- If you're not happy.
- Are you already on the clock?

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- Is that how this works?
- [scoffs] No, I just...

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I'm gonna save it.
It's dying, not dead.

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It can be saved.

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I'm gonna make a cocktail.
I need one.

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Can I pour you something?

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- Um...
- Yeah, it's early.

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Oh, no, that's not what I meant.
I just... I'm...

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I'm just not much
of a drinker, actually.

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But thank you. I had a...

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had an incident in college.

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[freezer banging, ice rattling]

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- [ice clinking]
- [drawer closing]

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- Yeah, I broke my jaw.
- [cork popping]

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Just completely tanked

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on Long Island iced teas.
[chuckles]

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I blacked out
right onto the sidewalk.

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I had to have my jaw wired shut
for over a month.

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- [exhales] - So, any of the smells
of the numerous alcohols

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in a Long Island
are a bit of a trigger for me.

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Are you triggered
by the smell of water?

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Because that's all I have.

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Or Pedialyte.

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Well, I've never been one to
turn down a Pedialyte. [chuckles]

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Blueberry or unflavored?

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Water's awesome.

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So, how long will you be here?

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It depends. Uh, a few days,
maybe a week.

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That's "a few days,
maybe a week"?

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Well, for a gay man, yes.
[chuckles]

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I wasn't expecting
to... to come here.

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None of this was expected.

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Oh, no. I'm sorry, I didn't...

101
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Um, I was packed
for a different trip,

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for... for a longer trip
when your son called.

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So then, this trip got
tacked on to... to that trip.

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And you're driving for that trip
and this trip?

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Yeah, I prefer it.

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You know, time alone,
time to think.

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I like a road trip.

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Oh, God.

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- I have more socks.
- You think they made the cut?

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- [bag unzipping]
- [Jamie] Yeah, I, uh,

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I love a road trip.

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It's a great way to, uh,
to see New Mexico.

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It's my first time, actually.
It's so beautiful.

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But it is funny, you know?
You see the desert landscape,

115
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and you just assume,
well, that's gonna be hot...

116
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So, how does this work?
You, here?

117
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Um, however you'd like it.

118
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No, I didn't ask
for any of this.

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So, it's not "however."
You tell me.

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Uh, I'm... I'm just
here to help.

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Me grieve?

122
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No. No, I couldn't possibly.

123
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No, you couldn't.
I'm more than capable.

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I just meant I could help, um,

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with arrangements,
um, running errands.

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- I think Tyler was thinking...
- Yes, what was my son thinking,

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sending you in his place?

128
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I think Tyler's
worried about you.

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I thought you'd be
better at that.

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Lying.

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Isn't that what assistants
do best?

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- He is worried.
- Fine. He's worried.

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And you know he would be here
in a heartbeat

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if he wasn't stuck
overseas doing...

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Overseas doing research
for the new book.

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Yes, that much I learned
in his texts to me,

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along with his condolences
for my husband,

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and regrets that he might not be
able to make it back for the funeral.

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And then, two days ago,
I learned that his assistant

140
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would be here in his absence,
in a text from you.

141
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Y-Yes, that is on me.

142
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I told Tyler
I would reach out, and I...

143
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and I should have let him
do that first.

144
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And why might
he not make it back?

145
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There's a prisoner of war
that he's hoping to interview,

146
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uh, in Khartoum.

147
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He has a contact, an insider

148
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in the Sudanese
Armed Forces that...

149
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It's timing, basically.
It's... it's about timing.

150
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It... He just has to be ready
for when it will be safe.

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And will it be safe
before Saturday to be here?

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That's the hope, yes.
That's what he's hoping.

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- Mm, that's in seven days.
- Yes.

154
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So, we're hoping it's...

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Safe before Saturday.

156
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And if it doesn't become safe,

157
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will you be sitting beside me
at the funeral?

158
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- Well, no. I... I mean,
I couldn't... - Why?

159
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You're doing
everything else for Tyler.

160
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Why can't you be my son
on the day?

161
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Well, because
I'm no replacement for him...

162
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You'd be surprised
how low that bar is.

163
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[sighs]

164
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Did you want me
to get the water?

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- [sighs]
- I-It's okay, no worries.

166
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- So, you don't want the water?
- No.

167
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No... I mean, yes,
I do want the water.

168
00:10:06,106 --> 00:10:07,565
I just meant
no worries in that...

169
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- [softly] Oh, my God.
- ...it's okay that you forgot.

170
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[phone chiming]

171
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Sorry, I meant to put
my phone on vibrate.

172
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[phone continues chiming]

173
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- Is that Tyler?
- Um, most likely, yes.

174
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- [phone chimes]
- Your son texts from his computer,

175
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so he's just constantly
hitting return

176
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and sending one sentence
at a time.

177
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Yes, it is him.

178
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Uh, he's just making sure
I arrived safely.

179
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That's a lot of sentences
for such a simple message.

180
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[Jamie] Uh...

181
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Uh, let's see what he says.

182
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- Um...
- [scoffs] Forget it.

183
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It doesn't all
have to be my business.

184
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But to the part that is...

185
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you can say that you
arrived safely and that...

186
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I'm doing well.

187
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In case that's his follow-up.

188
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Oh, and I'll take room temp.
There's no need for ice

189
00:11:00,869 --> 00:11:02,328
if the desert's not
gonna be hot.

190
00:11:02,370 --> 00:11:04,122
Yes, it's winter.
For God's sake,

191
00:11:04,164 --> 00:11:06,124
please stop being
blown away by that.

192
00:11:06,166 --> 00:11:07,375
[phone chimes]

193
00:11:10,003 --> 00:11:11,753
He sent a heart emoji.

194
00:11:11,754 --> 00:11:14,007
Is that for you arriving safely
or me doing well?

195
00:11:14,966 --> 00:11:17,343
- Imagine both.
- How economical of him.

196
00:11:17,385 --> 00:11:18,636
[Jamie chuckles]

197
00:11:20,847 --> 00:11:23,099
- [phone buzzing]
- I prefer you leave the chime on.

198
00:11:23,141 --> 00:11:25,393
That way I'll know
when <i>we</i> hear from him.

199
00:11:27,520 --> 00:11:28,521
Of course.

200
00:11:29,981 --> 00:11:31,357
- What?
- Nothing.

201
00:11:32,483 --> 00:11:34,152
- Am I a lot?
- No.

202
00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:36,487
That's a shame,
'cause I'm trying to be.

203
00:11:36,529 --> 00:11:38,781
You'll forgive me, Jamie,
but I'm having a hard time

204
00:11:38,823 --> 00:11:40,283
processing your presence.

205
00:11:40,325 --> 00:11:42,785
I know, I'm just...
I'm just doing my job.

206
00:11:42,827 --> 00:11:45,496
You understand my position, yes?
Why I'd be so agitated

207
00:11:45,538 --> 00:11:47,332
to learn that I'm your job?

208
00:11:47,373 --> 00:11:50,043
No, no, I'm sorry.
Being here is my job for Tyler.

209
00:11:50,084 --> 00:11:52,170
I didn't mean to imply
that you're my responsibility.

210
00:11:52,212 --> 00:11:53,963
Well, Tyler seems
to think differently.

211
00:11:54,005 --> 00:11:56,299
He seems to think he can
pass off his responsibility

212
00:11:56,341 --> 00:11:58,467
to be here to say goodbye
to his stepfather.

213
00:11:58,468 --> 00:12:00,678
Not that he ever called
Henry anything but Henry,

214
00:12:00,720 --> 00:12:01,971
let alone made an effort

215
00:12:02,013 --> 00:12:04,140
to have any kind of
relationship with him.

216
00:12:04,182 --> 00:12:05,808
So, well, maybe that's it.

217
00:12:05,850 --> 00:12:07,810
Maybe that's why he doesn't
feel he has a responsibility

218
00:12:07,852 --> 00:12:09,520
to be here?

219
00:12:09,562 --> 00:12:11,689
But my son does have
a relationship with me,

220
00:12:11,731 --> 00:12:14,400
or did at one point...
a good one,

221
00:12:14,442 --> 00:12:16,027
which I think counts.

222
00:12:16,069 --> 00:12:18,696
So, there is a responsibility
there to me.

223
00:12:19,739 --> 00:12:21,490
- Tyler is doing his best.
- Oh, please.

224
00:12:21,491 --> 00:12:23,492
- I think given the circumstances...
- Yes, you have to defend him.

225
00:12:23,493 --> 00:12:25,662
I get it, it's your job,
but I don't, so I won't.

226
00:12:25,703 --> 00:12:27,538
Overseas is bullshit.

227
00:12:27,580 --> 00:12:29,249
My husband
didn't just suddenly die.

228
00:12:29,290 --> 00:12:30,333
He had Parkinson's.

229
00:12:30,375 --> 00:12:31,501
We knew where we were headed,

230
00:12:31,542 --> 00:12:32,919
and so did Tyler.

231
00:12:32,961 --> 00:12:35,755
I actually called him
two weeks ago to tell him...

232
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To tell his voicemail, at least.

233
00:12:40,093 --> 00:12:41,844
I told him Henry
had taken a turn,

234
00:12:41,886 --> 00:12:44,681
things were complicated,
and time was not on our side.

235
00:12:44,722 --> 00:12:47,892
So, again, you'll forgive me
if I intend to allow myself

236
00:12:47,934 --> 00:12:50,228
some agitation
and disappointment.

237
00:12:53,815 --> 00:12:55,066
[ice clinking in glass]

238
00:12:57,402 --> 00:12:59,737
I understand. I do.

239
00:13:01,281 --> 00:13:03,157
But I'm not here
if you don't want me to be.

240
00:13:05,118 --> 00:13:07,704
Which is something
you could have conveyed

241
00:13:07,745 --> 00:13:09,706
two days ago when I texted you.

242
00:13:09,747 --> 00:13:12,208
But that said, I am here
because of Tyler,

243
00:13:12,250 --> 00:13:14,210
because he thought
I might be of help.

244
00:13:14,252 --> 00:13:15,670
But if you don't want that...

245
00:13:16,504 --> 00:13:19,507
if you would like me to leave,
I also understand that.

246
00:13:25,763 --> 00:13:27,265
I haven't made up my mind yet.

247
00:13:28,141 --> 00:13:29,142
[popping lips]

248
00:13:30,351 --> 00:13:31,352
Okay.

249
00:13:32,937 --> 00:13:33,938
So...

250
00:13:35,481 --> 00:13:37,483
how long have you
been his assistant?

251
00:13:38,443 --> 00:13:40,945
Uh, going on about
four years now.

252
00:13:40,987 --> 00:13:43,072
Wow. [chuckles]
Obviously, I'm aware

253
00:13:43,114 --> 00:13:45,158
Tyler and I have been
somewhat estranged for a while,

254
00:13:45,199 --> 00:13:47,160
but to not even know
of your existence?

255
00:13:48,286 --> 00:13:51,956
Although I'm not sure that's
more of a slight on me or you.

256
00:13:51,998 --> 00:13:52,999
[Jamie chuckles]

257
00:13:53,958 --> 00:13:55,418
Well, it doesn't bother me.

258
00:13:55,460 --> 00:13:56,627
How old are you?

259
00:13:58,046 --> 00:13:59,047
Forty-two.

260
00:14:00,965 --> 00:14:03,634
Four... 46. Final answer.

261
00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:06,012
- So, older than Tyler?
- Y-Yeah, it's just eight years.

262
00:14:06,054 --> 00:14:07,680
- Doesn't mean... It's not crazy.
- Of course not.

263
00:14:07,722 --> 00:14:09,766
- Is that an issue for you?
- No.

264
00:14:09,807 --> 00:14:12,769
Really? Because at first,
you made yourself less older.

265
00:14:12,810 --> 00:14:14,687
- Uh...
- I just have to imagine

266
00:14:14,729 --> 00:14:18,274
it's an interesting dynamic
for you as Tyler's assistant,

267
00:14:18,316 --> 00:14:21,694
with where he is in his life
at his exact age.

268
00:14:21,736 --> 00:14:23,946
- He's very successful.
- I'm... I'm successful.

269
00:14:23,988 --> 00:14:26,866
I'm sorry, this... [laughing]
this feels like an interview.

270
00:14:26,908 --> 00:14:29,118
Well, I'm being asked
to spend a few days,

271
00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:31,496
maybe a week,
with a complete stranger.

272
00:14:31,537 --> 00:14:33,539
I think I'm entitled
to know more.

273
00:14:33,581 --> 00:14:35,875
Yeah, this is all kind of
a second chapter for me.

274
00:14:35,917 --> 00:14:40,004
When I left NYU,
I took a job as a copywriter,

275
00:14:40,046 --> 00:14:42,465
but I wasn't happy
with anything.

276
00:14:42,507 --> 00:14:46,386
So, I decided to quit
and start over in LA.

277
00:14:46,427 --> 00:14:48,054
[Mrs. Patterson] Where
you took the job with Tyler.

278
00:14:48,096 --> 00:14:49,722
Um, yeah, eventually, yes.

279
00:14:49,764 --> 00:14:52,725
- Because you were a fan?
- Y-Yes, but when I got to LA,

280
00:14:52,767 --> 00:14:55,228
I didn't purposely seek him out.

281
00:14:55,269 --> 00:14:58,731
We just happened to randomly
bump into each other

282
00:14:58,773 --> 00:15:01,192
in West Hollywood at a bar.

283
00:15:02,527 --> 00:15:03,611
A gay bar?

284
00:15:04,362 --> 00:15:07,573
I mean, not... not all bars
in West Hollywood are gay bars.

285
00:15:07,615 --> 00:15:08,699
So, it wasn't a gay bar?

286
00:15:10,243 --> 00:15:12,495
- No, it was...
- Mm-hmm.

287
00:15:12,537 --> 00:15:14,330
You know, I mentioned
what brought me to LA,

288
00:15:14,372 --> 00:15:17,667
and he, you know, he mentioned
being very overwhelmed

289
00:15:17,708 --> 00:15:19,627
and very inundated, and...

290
00:15:20,753 --> 00:15:22,046
I don't know, I just...

291
00:15:23,381 --> 00:15:25,341
I remember thinking that
it felt like we were meeting

292
00:15:25,383 --> 00:15:26,551
for a reason.

293
00:15:27,593 --> 00:15:30,054
So, I offered myself up.
As his assistant.

294
00:15:31,431 --> 00:15:32,849
So, I'm curious.

295
00:15:32,890 --> 00:15:34,767
Mm, what has Tyler
said about me?

296
00:15:38,563 --> 00:15:41,065
What has Tyler said about you?

297
00:15:42,733 --> 00:15:45,153
Yes, I imagine he's mentioned me
at some point.

298
00:15:46,737 --> 00:15:48,197
Yeah, no,
I'm just trying to think.

299
00:15:48,239 --> 00:15:49,365
What he's said about me?

300
00:15:49,407 --> 00:15:50,908
Honestly, he doesn't
really talk much about...

301
00:15:50,950 --> 00:15:52,869
- Me?
- Childhood.

302
00:15:52,910 --> 00:15:54,245
That included me.

303
00:15:54,287 --> 00:15:55,621
[sighs] Mrs. Patterson...

304
00:15:55,663 --> 00:15:56,956
You're "46. Final answer."

305
00:15:56,998 --> 00:15:58,499
We can be at Diane.

306
00:15:59,292 --> 00:16:00,877
Diane, with all due respect...

307
00:16:00,918 --> 00:16:02,920
He sent you here,
so I have to assume

308
00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:04,714
- something's been said.
- Okay, he said you were,

309
00:16:04,755 --> 00:16:06,382
uh, a great cook,

310
00:16:06,424 --> 00:16:09,594
a big traveler,
that you like movies.

311
00:16:09,635 --> 00:16:12,472
Ooh, wow!
What a vivid picture.

312
00:16:12,513 --> 00:16:14,974
So, no adjectives. Huh.

313
00:16:16,601 --> 00:16:19,561
Uh, Diane, I'm sorry, I can't.

314
00:16:19,562 --> 00:16:21,481
- [cork popping, liquid pouring]
- Part of my being here,

315
00:16:21,522 --> 00:16:23,900
part of working for Tyler...
working for anybody, really,

316
00:16:23,941 --> 00:16:27,820
as an assistant, is that there
has to be some sort of semblance

317
00:16:27,862 --> 00:16:29,906
of a cone of silence
when it comes to stuff

318
00:16:29,947 --> 00:16:32,366
discussed about anything,

319
00:16:32,408 --> 00:16:34,118
including family.

320
00:16:34,160 --> 00:16:35,912
It's not mine to share.

321
00:16:35,953 --> 00:16:38,956
I have to be a safe place
for Tyler, and I have been.

322
00:16:39,874 --> 00:16:42,168
And should you choose
to have me here,

323
00:16:42,210 --> 00:16:43,503
I would be that for you.

324
00:16:43,544 --> 00:16:46,047
I... I would be
a cone of silence.

325
00:16:47,048 --> 00:16:48,549
Which is something
I think you would want.

326
00:16:53,179 --> 00:16:54,847
Some things
should remain unsaid.

327
00:16:54,889 --> 00:16:57,433
I have experience with that.

328
00:16:57,475 --> 00:16:59,644
Besides, I doubt
you could tell me

329
00:16:59,685 --> 00:17:01,562
anything I don't already know.

330
00:17:02,813 --> 00:17:04,482
Can't be much good in there.

331
00:17:07,068 --> 00:17:10,696
- Well, that's not true.
- And that's not true, either.

332
00:17:14,659 --> 00:17:16,160
Do you mind if I use
your bathroom?

333
00:17:16,202 --> 00:17:18,538
Yeah. That would seem
cruel if I said no,

334
00:17:18,579 --> 00:17:20,957
seeing as you just drank
the equivalent of a lake.

335
00:17:20,998 --> 00:17:22,166
[Jamie chuckles]

336
00:17:26,170 --> 00:17:28,130
- Um...
- We removed the door

337
00:17:28,172 --> 00:17:30,508
- to make it easier for Henry.
- Oh, sure.

338
00:17:32,927 --> 00:17:35,680
- You know, I think I'm good, actually...
- Do your business.

339
00:17:35,721 --> 00:17:37,515
- I'll refill your lake.
- [chuckles]

340
00:17:40,059 --> 00:17:41,352
[phone buzzing]

341
00:17:42,687 --> 00:17:44,730
- [urine splashing]
- [phone continues buzzing]

342
00:17:44,772 --> 00:17:46,065
[urinating stops]

343
00:17:46,107 --> 00:17:47,817
That's odd.
I don't remember...

344
00:17:48,526 --> 00:17:50,820
- turning that off, that's crazy.
- Yes.

345
00:17:50,861 --> 00:17:52,196
- [phone buzzing]
- [urinating resumes]

346
00:17:52,238 --> 00:17:54,198
[Jamie] I don't know why
that chime's not on.

347
00:17:54,240 --> 00:17:55,908
- Do you need me to bring it to you?
- No, no!

348
00:17:55,950 --> 00:17:57,243
Nope, almost done.

349
00:17:57,285 --> 00:17:59,036
- Yep, just...
- [toilet flushing]

350
00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:00,329
...wrapping it up.

351
00:18:00,371 --> 00:18:01,956
[sink faucet running]

352
00:18:04,542 --> 00:18:07,003
Sorry about that.
I don't remember

353
00:18:07,044 --> 00:18:08,129
putting it on the...

354
00:18:09,130 --> 00:18:10,881
Um... [clicking tongue]

355
00:18:10,923 --> 00:18:12,674
Unfortunately, he knows
it's already gonna be

356
00:18:12,675 --> 00:18:15,720
another day of waiting.
It's... It's still not safe.

357
00:18:15,761 --> 00:18:17,513
I think your son is stressed.

358
00:18:17,555 --> 00:18:20,433
Most of this is him just
asking me to quiet his mind.

359
00:18:20,474 --> 00:18:23,019
He's wondering if he's doing
the right thing by being there.

360
00:18:23,060 --> 00:18:24,812
Do you think he's doing
the right thing?

361
00:18:27,481 --> 00:18:29,400
- That's not my place to...
- Will you reassure him

362
00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:30,735
that he's doing the right thing?

363
00:18:32,570 --> 00:18:34,780
Your son is grappling
with all of this, for sure.

364
00:18:42,413 --> 00:18:43,581
- I like all the art.
- [Diane] Sure.

365
00:18:43,623 --> 00:18:45,541
We can change the subject.

366
00:18:45,583 --> 00:18:47,208
[Jamie] No, no, I meant
to mention that.

367
00:18:47,209 --> 00:18:49,587
No, I welcome it.
The art is all Henry.

368
00:18:49,629 --> 00:18:51,547
- [sink faucet running]
- He painted.

369
00:18:51,589 --> 00:18:53,591
Was a painter. Not a hobby.

370
00:18:54,634 --> 00:18:57,887
After he was diagnosed just
a little over three years ago,

371
00:18:57,928 --> 00:18:59,889
Henry wanted us to move out here

372
00:18:59,930 --> 00:19:02,058
so he could paint
this part of the world

373
00:19:02,099 --> 00:19:03,351
before he could no longer.

374
00:19:05,603 --> 00:19:07,605
I offered to buy him
coffee table books

375
00:19:07,647 --> 00:19:09,774
and just bring this world
to New York.

376
00:19:09,815 --> 00:19:13,402
But he insisted his eyes
see it for themselves.

377
00:19:13,444 --> 00:19:15,570
He knew it was a big ask.

378
00:19:15,571 --> 00:19:19,158
My life was in Manhattan.
I was leaving my career, and...

379
00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:21,160
But of course,
I said I loved the idea.

380
00:19:22,787 --> 00:19:24,955
That was the only lie
I ever told my husband.

381
00:19:26,290 --> 00:19:27,875
That husband, anyway.

382
00:19:28,959 --> 00:19:30,836
He was hoping
to finish that before he...

383
00:19:36,175 --> 00:19:37,927
What did Tyler
tell you about Henry?

384
00:19:37,968 --> 00:19:39,470
- Diane...
- No.

385
00:19:39,512 --> 00:19:41,263
No cone of silence,
not with Henry.

386
00:19:41,305 --> 00:19:42,431
With me, fine.

387
00:19:42,473 --> 00:19:44,100
Yes, he said you, uh,

388
00:19:44,141 --> 00:19:46,435
had been together
for 27 years, I think.

389
00:19:46,477 --> 00:19:48,104
Twenty-nine. What else?

390
00:19:48,145 --> 00:19:49,939
And, uh, that you two

391
00:19:49,980 --> 00:19:52,024
deserved each other,
which I thought was sweet.

392
00:19:52,066 --> 00:19:54,110
[sighs]

393
00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:56,237
It can be heard that way.
Is that it?

394
00:19:58,823 --> 00:20:00,032
- Yeah.
- [phone chimes]

395
00:20:00,074 --> 00:20:01,701
Maybe deal with that.

396
00:20:02,868 --> 00:20:04,537
- [phone chiming]
- Oh, my God.

397
00:20:04,578 --> 00:20:07,039
Now, the sun is being
an asshole.

398
00:20:07,081 --> 00:20:08,457
[Jamie] Oh, <i>that</i> sun.
Sorry. [chuckles]

399
00:20:08,499 --> 00:20:10,126
- What?
- Sorry, I keep thinking

400
00:20:10,167 --> 00:20:11,877
- that you're talking about...
- It's relentless!

401
00:20:11,919 --> 00:20:13,879
Everything here is exposed.

402
00:20:13,921 --> 00:20:15,798
Well, I think some time in
the direct sunlight might be...

403
00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:18,134
- might be helpful. - Well, then
you tell me what to do with it.

404
00:20:18,175 --> 00:20:19,801
- What?
- You were sent to assist.

405
00:20:19,802 --> 00:20:21,846
So, assist. Sun or shade?

406
00:20:21,887 --> 00:20:23,806
- [phone continues chiming]
- Sun or shade?

407
00:20:23,848 --> 00:20:25,182
- Uh, whichever.
- Not "whichever."

408
00:20:25,224 --> 00:20:26,642
You have an opinion, express it.

409
00:20:26,684 --> 00:20:27,685
Okay, I think maybe some time

410
00:20:27,727 --> 00:20:28,853
- where... in the...
- [phone chimes]

411
00:20:28,894 --> 00:20:30,479
And for God's sake, respond!

412
00:20:30,521 --> 00:20:32,565
Quiet his mind or whatever it is
he needs you to do.

413
00:20:32,606 --> 00:20:34,316
- I'm telling him to hang on.
- "He's stressed."

414
00:20:34,358 --> 00:20:36,151
- [text whooshing]
- What the hell does he think I'm feeling?

415
00:20:36,152 --> 00:20:38,195
Does he even acknowledge
what's happening here?

416
00:20:38,237 --> 00:20:39,321
What I'm going through?

417
00:20:39,363 --> 00:20:41,532
Does he even attempt
to text that?

418
00:20:41,574 --> 00:20:44,160
No, don't even tell me.
He has my number.

419
00:20:44,201 --> 00:20:46,078
He can use it.
After what I've done.

420
00:20:46,120 --> 00:20:48,247
You don't even know
what I've put aside.

421
00:20:48,289 --> 00:20:51,500
Because that's what you do.
You put it all aside.

422
00:20:51,542 --> 00:20:55,004
You put it all aside,
despite how you feel.

423
00:20:55,045 --> 00:20:58,674
When someone is hurting,
someone you're supposed to love,

424
00:20:58,716 --> 00:21:01,552
you put it aside,
you ungrateful,

425
00:21:01,594 --> 00:21:03,053
selfish dickhead!

426
00:21:08,559 --> 00:21:10,436
I'm sorry. That wasn't, um...

427
00:21:11,896 --> 00:21:12,897
And...

428
00:21:15,566 --> 00:21:17,234
I'm sorry about the, um...

429
00:21:18,736 --> 00:21:21,363
Henry dealt with the plants.

430
00:21:21,405 --> 00:21:23,407
He... They were his thing.

431
00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:26,660
He... he loved them,
and I, um...

432
00:21:34,919 --> 00:21:39,048
Diane, um, I know this
is all very overwhelming,

433
00:21:39,089 --> 00:21:40,925
and I certainly don't want
to add to that.

434
00:21:41,967 --> 00:21:43,511
But I am happy to be here.

435
00:21:44,762 --> 00:21:48,432
If only to focus
all of my assistance

436
00:21:48,474 --> 00:21:51,018
on saving that succulent.

437
00:21:52,853 --> 00:21:53,938
[scoffs lightly]

438
00:21:53,979 --> 00:21:55,356
- Hm.
- My God. [chuckles]

439
00:21:58,025 --> 00:21:59,485
Well, we, um...

440
00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:02,738
we turned the spare
into an art studio,

441
00:22:02,780 --> 00:22:04,281
so you'll have
to sleep out here.

442
00:22:04,323 --> 00:22:05,741
Sure.

443
00:22:05,783 --> 00:22:06,784
Okay.

444
00:22:09,036 --> 00:22:10,496
Oh.

445
00:22:10,538 --> 00:22:12,915
- It is a bed.
- Oh, yeah, no, it's...

446
00:22:12,957 --> 00:22:14,667
- Or there's the couch.
- Yeah. Oh, maybe the couch.

447
00:22:14,708 --> 00:22:16,085
That is where he died,
though, so...

448
00:22:16,126 --> 00:22:17,419
- Wow, okay.
- ...it's up to you.

449
00:22:17,461 --> 00:22:18,504
- No, that's...
- I'll get sheets.

450
00:22:18,546 --> 00:22:19,630
Thanks.

451
00:22:19,672 --> 00:22:21,674
[phone chiming]

452
00:22:23,133 --> 00:22:26,262
There's no reason to be worried,
is there, for his safety?

453
00:22:26,303 --> 00:22:28,596
No, no, he wouldn't
put himself in danger.

454
00:22:28,597 --> 00:22:30,975
[scoffs] I probably
should have asked that first.

455
00:22:35,145 --> 00:22:38,148
[♪ gentle music playing]

456
00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:43,028
[insects chirring]

457
00:23:00,004 --> 00:23:01,297
Thank you for making dinner.

458
00:23:01,338 --> 00:23:02,882
Oh, I didn't make.
I heated.

459
00:23:02,923 --> 00:23:04,341
- [chuckles]
- It's amazing what dishes

460
00:23:04,383 --> 00:23:05,843
people are inclined
to bring over.

461
00:23:05,885 --> 00:23:08,345
According to my fridge,
you'd think I only eat

462
00:23:08,387 --> 00:23:11,223
casseroles and enchiladas.

463
00:23:11,265 --> 00:23:12,892
[Jamie chuckles]

464
00:23:12,933 --> 00:23:15,352
Well, people just like
to bring comfort food.

465
00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:17,730
Yeah, well, I've been
comforted by a salad.

466
00:23:17,771 --> 00:23:19,064
[Jamie laughing]

467
00:23:20,107 --> 00:23:22,151
Was that genuine?

468
00:23:22,192 --> 00:23:24,820
Yes. I thought it was funny.

469
00:23:24,862 --> 00:23:27,114
Oh, just checking.
You chuckle a lot.

470
00:23:28,198 --> 00:23:30,409
But I might have to challenge
the validity

471
00:23:30,451 --> 00:23:32,411
of a comforting salad.

472
00:23:32,453 --> 00:23:35,122
Oh, I forgot to give this
to you, from Tyler.

473
00:23:37,708 --> 00:23:41,295
Yes, it's my handwriting,
but his words, dictated.

474
00:23:42,421 --> 00:23:44,590
He is good about sending cards.

475
00:23:44,632 --> 00:23:47,593
Interestingly enough,
going on about four years now.

476
00:23:53,974 --> 00:23:56,101
How'd it go with Tyler?

477
00:23:56,143 --> 00:23:59,104
Were you able to reassure him?

478
00:23:59,146 --> 00:24:01,023
Oh, yes, yeah.
But I'll hear from him again,

479
00:24:01,065 --> 00:24:03,525
and then I'll have
to reassure him all over again.

480
00:24:03,567 --> 00:24:06,403
That's the cycle.
Welcome to my world.

481
00:24:08,113 --> 00:24:10,366
Hmm. Tyler was always anxious.

482
00:24:10,407 --> 00:24:12,618
- That world has not changed.
- [chuckles]

483
00:24:12,660 --> 00:24:14,702
I remember once picking him up
from kindergarten.

484
00:24:14,703 --> 00:24:18,374
He was... [chuckles]
He was in tears, inconsolable.

485
00:24:18,415 --> 00:24:20,125
My mind thought the worst,
you know,

486
00:24:20,167 --> 00:24:22,878
he'd been hit or bullied.

487
00:24:22,920 --> 00:24:25,213
It turns out he was just...
he was just upset

488
00:24:25,214 --> 00:24:27,591
because he was terrible
at cutting with scissors.

489
00:24:27,633 --> 00:24:29,802
[laughing]

490
00:24:31,637 --> 00:24:34,139
Of course,
I stifled my laugh on that day.

491
00:24:35,432 --> 00:24:39,103
I validated his feelings.
My son was seen and heard.

492
00:24:40,270 --> 00:24:42,398
Plus, as I would come to learn,

493
00:24:42,439 --> 00:24:44,191
his teachers
were genuinely concerned

494
00:24:44,233 --> 00:24:45,734
about his inability to cut.

495
00:24:45,776 --> 00:24:48,570
So, fuck me, I guess.
Fuck me for not knowing

496
00:24:48,612 --> 00:24:50,447
it was some kind
of developmental thing.

497
00:24:50,489 --> 00:24:52,449
Hands being able to do
different tasks

498
00:24:52,491 --> 00:24:54,076
at the same time
or something, I don't know.

499
00:24:54,118 --> 00:24:56,078
Anyway, Tyler was distraught

500
00:24:56,120 --> 00:24:58,122
because all the other kids
could do it and he couldn't.

501
00:24:58,163 --> 00:25:00,290
So, I spent that weekend
with him,

502
00:25:00,332 --> 00:25:01,834
just sitting on the floor,

503
00:25:01,875 --> 00:25:03,836
cutting up
all my good magazines.

504
00:25:03,877 --> 00:25:05,337
[chuckles]

505
00:25:07,339 --> 00:25:08,966
Is he good at cutting
with scissors now?

506
00:25:09,008 --> 00:25:11,301
You know, I can't say
I've ever seen him do it.

507
00:25:11,969 --> 00:25:14,430
Maybe text him
at some point, find out.

508
00:25:14,471 --> 00:25:15,973
Be nice to know
I made a difference,

509
00:25:16,015 --> 00:25:18,976
and that my magazines
did not die in vain.

510
00:25:20,227 --> 00:25:23,647
You know, Diane,
you could text him yourself.

511
00:25:29,820 --> 00:25:31,321
And if it gives you any solace,

512
00:25:31,363 --> 00:25:33,157
I happen to know
you did make a difference,

513
00:25:33,198 --> 00:25:35,451
because Tyler told me
what it was like

514
00:25:35,492 --> 00:25:38,537
for him coming out to you,
and he said you were amazing.

515
00:25:38,579 --> 00:25:40,121
Are you allowed to tell me that?

516
00:25:40,122 --> 00:25:43,584
I think I can lift
the cone on this one.

517
00:25:45,169 --> 00:25:49,297
He said when he finally got up
the nerve to come out to you,

518
00:25:49,298 --> 00:25:51,800
he felt like you were
already there waiting.

519
00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:56,597
"Waiting to give him love."
Those were his exact words.

520
00:25:57,389 --> 00:25:59,349
Well, I was there.

521
00:25:59,391 --> 00:26:01,977
And I was there all the times
he almost came out.

522
00:26:02,019 --> 00:26:04,188
- [chuckles]
- I always knew he was gay

523
00:26:04,229 --> 00:26:05,564
from an early age.

524
00:26:05,606 --> 00:26:07,191
And for so many years,
there were these moments

525
00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:09,359
where he'd come into a room
where I was,

526
00:26:09,401 --> 00:26:13,363
not even the room,
just into the doorway.

527
00:26:13,405 --> 00:26:15,282
And I'd see it
right there on his face.

528
00:26:16,283 --> 00:26:18,827
And I'd think to myself
every time,

529
00:26:18,869 --> 00:26:21,246
"This is it, Diane, he's gonna
come out, don't screw it up."

530
00:26:21,288 --> 00:26:23,373
[chuckles]

531
00:26:23,415 --> 00:26:25,042
And believe me,
it took everything in my power

532
00:26:25,084 --> 00:26:26,919
not to want
to yank him out myself.

533
00:26:28,545 --> 00:26:29,546
I just...

534
00:26:30,923 --> 00:26:32,883
I just wanted him
to get to the other side of it.

535
00:26:32,925 --> 00:26:34,927
I knew it would be better there.

536
00:26:36,053 --> 00:26:38,347
I knew it was up to him,
of course.

537
00:26:38,388 --> 00:26:40,891
So, I just stayed still, calm,

538
00:26:40,933 --> 00:26:46,230
and we'd stare at each other
for what felt like forever...

539
00:26:46,271 --> 00:26:49,817
waiting on the same thing,
waiting for him to step through.

540
00:26:50,943 --> 00:26:52,945
And eventually,
all those times I'd...

541
00:26:52,986 --> 00:26:57,116
I'd I just have to watch him
push it all down and walk away.

542
00:26:58,283 --> 00:27:02,538
So, when the day came,
<i>the</i> day...

543
00:27:02,579 --> 00:27:05,082
Oh, Tyler was 23,
home for Christmas,

544
00:27:05,124 --> 00:27:06,875
and I was in
the kitchen, cooking.

545
00:27:06,917 --> 00:27:09,753
And he came in like he'd done
so many times before,

546
00:27:09,795 --> 00:27:12,172
right into the doorway,
no further.

547
00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:17,719
And the look was the same.

548
00:27:17,761 --> 00:27:21,223
The fear was there, the pain,
all of it the same.

549
00:27:21,265 --> 00:27:22,808
[clicking tongue]
But in that moment, I just...

550
00:27:23,851 --> 00:27:25,435
I knew I couldn't stay still.

551
00:27:26,478 --> 00:27:28,272
I knew I couldn't yank, but...

552
00:27:29,523 --> 00:27:32,317
[sighs] I needed to make this
the right time for my son.

553
00:27:32,359 --> 00:27:36,321
So, I just looked at him
and I said...

554
00:27:38,031 --> 00:27:39,116
"I love you."

555
00:27:40,325 --> 00:27:41,910
I mean, I'd said it
so many times before,

556
00:27:41,952 --> 00:27:43,787
but I guess
never like that, like...

557
00:27:44,830 --> 00:27:47,291
like reassurance.

558
00:27:48,375 --> 00:27:49,960
As if maybe he'd forgotten.

559
00:27:51,879 --> 00:27:55,174
And with that,
Tyler just exhaled.

560
00:27:56,216 --> 00:27:58,635
And I watched it all fall away.

561
00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:02,389
And I watched my son
step into the room.

562
00:28:06,310 --> 00:28:07,769
- Wow.
- Mm.

563
00:28:07,811 --> 00:28:10,355
- Hm. - And then,
we made dinner together.

564
00:28:11,315 --> 00:28:12,316
In fact...

565
00:28:13,317 --> 00:28:14,610
we made a comforting salad.

566
00:28:14,651 --> 00:28:16,195
[laughing]

567
00:28:17,196 --> 00:28:18,697
Well, no offense to scissors,

568
00:28:18,739 --> 00:28:22,534
but I think that is a...
a bigger difference.

569
00:28:25,370 --> 00:28:28,457
Tyler is very lucky
to have you as a mom.

570
00:28:28,498 --> 00:28:29,541
[Diane] Mm.

571
00:28:30,500 --> 00:28:31,668
And what about you?

572
00:28:32,669 --> 00:28:34,379
Were you lucky
with your parents?

573
00:28:35,380 --> 00:28:36,965
Um...

574
00:28:37,007 --> 00:28:38,508
- You... you don't have to say.
- No, no, no. No.

575
00:28:38,550 --> 00:28:40,802
I... I'd like to think
I would have been, yeah.

576
00:28:40,844 --> 00:28:44,223
But um, I lost both my parents
before I, uh...

577
00:28:46,016 --> 00:28:48,143
I came out later than I should
ha... I mean, not should have.

578
00:28:48,185 --> 00:28:49,853
I came out when I was ready
and I wasn't ready

579
00:28:49,895 --> 00:28:52,731
until I was 35, and...

580
00:28:52,773 --> 00:28:55,317
they both passed away
within a year of each other.

581
00:28:55,359 --> 00:28:58,487
It was, um, cancer came
for both of them.

582
00:28:58,528 --> 00:29:00,697
- I'm sorry.
- Thank you. Thank you.

583
00:29:01,615 --> 00:29:03,367
- Do you have any siblings?
- No.

584
00:29:03,408 --> 00:29:05,911
Uh, I'm an only child,
as was my dad.

585
00:29:05,953 --> 00:29:08,413
And my mom
didn't talk to her sister,

586
00:29:08,455 --> 00:29:11,124
and I hear she's gone now, too.
So, no, it's just me.

587
00:29:12,626 --> 00:29:14,419
That must have been difficult.

588
00:29:14,461 --> 00:29:16,255
Caring for both of them
on your own?

589
00:29:20,259 --> 00:29:21,385
Yeah.

590
00:29:21,426 --> 00:29:23,053
Yeah, it was. But, um...

591
00:29:24,263 --> 00:29:25,555
But, you know, I mean...

592
00:29:26,723 --> 00:29:28,934
we weren't really given a
choice in the matter. [chuckles]

593
00:29:28,976 --> 00:29:31,270
We just had to get
good at it fast, right?

594
00:29:33,563 --> 00:29:34,898
- Yes, we did.
- Hmm.

595
00:29:38,402 --> 00:29:41,363
If you don't mind... me asking,

596
00:29:41,405 --> 00:29:43,365
do you know why you did wait?

597
00:29:43,407 --> 00:29:46,076
Why you weren't ready
until you were?

598
00:29:49,746 --> 00:29:50,998
I imagine I do.

599
00:29:52,249 --> 00:29:53,250
Yeah.

600
00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:56,336
[chuckles softly] Uh...

601
00:30:01,758 --> 00:30:03,635
Not that I can't drink alone,

602
00:30:03,677 --> 00:30:06,305
but can I, uh, get you a glass?

603
00:30:09,599 --> 00:30:10,600
Yeah.

604
00:30:12,019 --> 00:30:13,603
Thank you. [chuckles]

605
00:30:13,645 --> 00:30:16,648
[♪ gentle music playing]

606
00:30:25,949 --> 00:30:27,284
[phone chimes]

607
00:30:31,288 --> 00:30:32,622
[phone chimes]

608
00:30:37,502 --> 00:30:38,712
[phone chimes]

609
00:30:39,963 --> 00:30:41,381
[phone chimes]

610
00:30:43,842 --> 00:30:45,302
[phone buzzing]

611
00:30:48,638 --> 00:30:49,973
[phone buzzing]

612
00:31:00,025 --> 00:31:02,486
Oh. What did she do here?

613
00:31:03,487 --> 00:31:05,447
- Good morning.
- Oh, good morning.

614
00:31:05,489 --> 00:31:08,033
Well, I'm afraid
it was overwatered,

615
00:31:08,075 --> 00:31:09,701
so I'm just gonna let the leaves

616
00:31:09,743 --> 00:31:11,828
and the roots dry out
a little bit.

617
00:31:11,870 --> 00:31:13,372
It's worth a shot.

618
00:31:13,413 --> 00:31:15,540
Oh, and I, um,
I emptied your dishwasher,

619
00:31:15,582 --> 00:31:18,210
but I wasn't sure
where those platters went.

620
00:31:18,251 --> 00:31:20,295
And I made some coffee.

621
00:31:20,337 --> 00:31:22,506
What happened to just
focusing on the succulent?

622
00:31:22,547 --> 00:31:23,840
I'm sorry,
I couldn't help myself.

623
00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:25,509
I kinda get off on this stuff,

624
00:31:25,550 --> 00:31:27,719
and I instantly regret
saying "get off."

625
00:31:29,262 --> 00:31:32,015
And did you "get off"
on feeding the cat, too?

626
00:31:32,057 --> 00:31:34,518
Uh, yes.
Again, sorry, I just...

627
00:31:34,559 --> 00:31:36,353
I noticed the bowl was empty.

628
00:31:36,395 --> 00:31:37,729
Well, that one's all for naught.

629
00:31:37,771 --> 00:31:39,856
The cat was carried off
by an owl, so...

630
00:31:42,192 --> 00:31:44,736
- Wait, what? - Yeah, he was
sunning out on the patio.

631
00:31:44,778 --> 00:31:48,155
An owl swooped down,
and off they went.

632
00:31:48,156 --> 00:31:50,283
All that was left
was a piece of his tail.

633
00:31:51,284 --> 00:31:53,036
- That's a thing?
- All the time.

634
00:31:53,745 --> 00:31:57,499
Henry insisted we leave
the bowl out because,

635
00:31:57,541 --> 00:31:59,334
I don't know,
maybe he thought the owl

636
00:31:59,376 --> 00:32:01,670
would circle back
and drop the cat off?

637
00:32:01,711 --> 00:32:02,712
[Jamie chuckles]

638
00:32:04,047 --> 00:32:05,757
I'm sorry, that's horrible.

639
00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:07,592
The act of it, yes, but...

640
00:32:09,177 --> 00:32:11,263
Barnaby only really
loved Henry, so...

641
00:32:13,223 --> 00:32:14,933
I'm thinking
this is a good thing.

642
00:32:14,975 --> 00:32:16,393
They're together again.

643
00:32:17,894 --> 00:32:19,438
[refrigerator door opens
and closes]

644
00:32:25,444 --> 00:32:27,487
That goes down there,
and that in the corner.

645
00:32:28,613 --> 00:32:29,614
Yes.

646
00:32:35,579 --> 00:32:36,955
Any word from Tyler?

647
00:32:38,582 --> 00:32:40,584
Yeah, um, yeah, sorry.

648
00:32:40,625 --> 00:32:44,087
It's... It's... It's not safe,
unfortunately.

649
00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:47,257
And I'm sorry,
I should have mentioned.

650
00:32:54,931 --> 00:32:56,641
- [car beeping]
- [neighbor] Diane!

651
00:32:56,683 --> 00:32:58,393
- [softly] Oh, shit.
- Diane!

652
00:32:58,435 --> 00:32:59,936
Oh. [sighs]

653
00:33:00,937 --> 00:33:03,440
- Diane.
- Oh. Hi, Judith.

654
00:33:03,482 --> 00:33:04,941
- Hi.
- Love the turquoise.

655
00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:06,651
Oh, thanks. Can't get enough.

656
00:33:06,693 --> 00:33:08,862
- Seems like it.
- Yes.

657
00:33:08,904 --> 00:33:10,238
This is Judith,
my next door neighbor.

658
00:33:10,280 --> 00:33:12,073
And this is Jamie.

659
00:33:12,115 --> 00:33:13,742
A gift from my son.

660
00:33:13,783 --> 00:33:15,410
Oh!

661
00:33:15,452 --> 00:33:17,496
That's very sweet.
Nice to meet you.

662
00:33:17,537 --> 00:33:18,788
[Jamie] Nice to meet you.

663
00:33:20,123 --> 00:33:21,458
And how are you?

664
00:33:21,500 --> 00:33:23,668
I'm doing okay, thank you.

665
00:33:23,710 --> 00:33:26,296
Well, I hate to pile on
more troubling news.

666
00:33:27,380 --> 00:33:28,965
Yeah. My Chipper is missing.

667
00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:30,842
Oh, no, that is more troubling.

668
00:33:30,884 --> 00:33:32,928
Yes, it's my chihuahua.

669
00:33:32,969 --> 00:33:34,095
- Oh.
- Mix.

670
00:33:34,137 --> 00:33:36,515
I mean, purebred, uh, mix.

671
00:33:36,556 --> 00:33:37,933
Wow.

672
00:33:37,974 --> 00:33:40,101
[Judith]
Trying to stay positive.

673
00:33:40,143 --> 00:33:42,979
You know, gotta keep hope alive.

674
00:33:43,021 --> 00:33:44,314
You know. [chuckles]

675
00:33:46,149 --> 00:33:48,944
- I do know.
- Well, if either of you see him,

676
00:33:48,985 --> 00:33:50,612
just give me a call.

677
00:33:50,654 --> 00:33:52,322
- Sure. Oh.
- And if I don't answer,

678
00:33:52,364 --> 00:33:54,824
of course I'll call right back,
but I'll probably answer.

679
00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:56,618
- Oh.
- And all prayers welcome.

680
00:33:56,660 --> 00:33:58,119
- Sure.
- Thank you so much.

681
00:33:58,161 --> 00:34:00,288
- God bless.
- [Jamie] Bye-bye.

682
00:34:00,330 --> 00:34:03,291
Ooh, Marci! Hello, girl!

683
00:34:03,333 --> 00:34:04,793
Hold up.

684
00:34:04,834 --> 00:34:07,170
Diane, I think her dog...

685
00:34:07,212 --> 00:34:09,714
Yeah, a hawk.
I saw it happen from the window.

686
00:34:11,967 --> 00:34:14,135
- Should we tell her?
- You heard her.

687
00:34:14,177 --> 00:34:15,679
She needs to keep hope alive.

688
00:34:16,680 --> 00:34:18,640
- [Jamie] Oh, thank you.
- [server] Of course.

689
00:34:18,682 --> 00:34:22,978
I'm beginning to understand this
whole green chile obsession.

690
00:34:23,019 --> 00:34:24,688
- It's basically a cult.
- [laughing]

691
00:34:25,355 --> 00:34:26,356
[Diane sighs]

692
00:34:26,731 --> 00:34:28,358
Henry couldn't get enough,
either.

693
00:34:28,692 --> 00:34:30,485
[people chattering]

694
00:34:30,527 --> 00:34:34,489
Oh, do you want to start a...
a list of things we need to do?

695
00:34:34,531 --> 00:34:37,367
I have one. Henry made it.

696
00:34:37,409 --> 00:34:39,244
- Oh. - He found it
to be one of the perks

697
00:34:39,286 --> 00:34:40,704
of knowing his "end date."

698
00:34:41,705 --> 00:34:42,831
His words.

699
00:34:42,872 --> 00:34:44,040
I haven't opened it.

700
00:34:45,542 --> 00:34:48,335
Are you sure you want me to?
I mean, it might be a note.

701
00:34:48,336 --> 00:34:51,423
I was by his side in the end,
we said everything.

702
00:34:52,716 --> 00:34:53,717
Okay.

703
00:34:56,636 --> 00:34:57,637
Alrighty.

704
00:35:00,473 --> 00:35:02,225
Yep. See, just a list.

705
00:35:04,728 --> 00:35:07,689
"Henry's Exit Strategy.

706
00:35:07,731 --> 00:35:09,733
"Number one,
I want a fully stocked bar

707
00:35:09,774 --> 00:35:11,568
"at the reception,
but no champagne.

708
00:35:11,610 --> 00:35:13,987
"I hate it, so no one
toast me with it.

709
00:35:15,238 --> 00:35:17,282
"Number two,
music at the service.

710
00:35:17,324 --> 00:35:19,367
"You know me, Diane.
I don't do subtle.

711
00:35:19,409 --> 00:35:21,244
"So, Beach Boys'
'God Only Knows'

712
00:35:21,286 --> 00:35:23,413
"as the guests arrive.
And as they leave,

713
00:35:23,455 --> 00:35:26,666
Barry White's 'You're the First,
the Last, My Everything.'"

714
00:35:27,751 --> 00:35:31,212
Well, that's not gonna
fly with his church.

715
00:35:31,254 --> 00:35:33,298
Well, his church
hasn't met me yet.

716
00:35:33,340 --> 00:35:34,758
And you haven't met his church.

717
00:35:35,925 --> 00:35:37,886
- Well, then they'll
do it for you. - No.

718
00:35:37,927 --> 00:35:40,805
They don't know me.
They know of me.

719
00:35:40,847 --> 00:35:43,266
I'd drop Henry off
and pick him up.

720
00:35:43,308 --> 00:35:45,602
Henry made friends here,
I made acquaintances.

721
00:35:46,478 --> 00:35:48,772
Well, then they'll do it
for Henry.

722
00:35:48,813 --> 00:35:49,814
What else?

723
00:35:51,524 --> 00:35:54,778
Uh, "Number three, flowers.
I leave that up to you, Diane.

724
00:35:54,819 --> 00:35:57,697
"Fill the church with whatever
makes you feel New York.

725
00:35:59,282 --> 00:36:00,367
"One stipulation.

726
00:36:02,410 --> 00:36:05,163
You must purchase the flowers
from Doris Kato's cousin."

727
00:36:05,205 --> 00:36:06,623
Are you fucking kidding me?

728
00:36:06,665 --> 00:36:08,083
"Her name is Kathy, by the way.

729
00:36:08,124 --> 00:36:09,459
- I know you weren't listening."
- [sighs]

730
00:36:09,501 --> 00:36:10,710
[softly] My God.

731
00:36:11,795 --> 00:36:13,004
- "Number four."
- What?

732
00:36:13,046 --> 00:36:15,173
Invite Kathy to the service?

733
00:36:17,509 --> 00:36:18,968
"Finish my painting."

734
00:36:24,015 --> 00:36:26,476
Well, that's not happening.
I can't paint.

735
00:36:26,518 --> 00:36:29,020
"It doesn't matter
that you can't paint, Diane.

736
00:36:29,062 --> 00:36:30,689
"Painting brought us together.

737
00:36:31,648 --> 00:36:33,692
I want you to finish
what I couldn't."

738
00:36:34,734 --> 00:36:36,528
Well...
[clearing throat]

739
00:36:36,569 --> 00:36:38,488
It is finished.
That's how I want it.

740
00:36:40,699 --> 00:36:42,283
Well, it might be cool
to have some...

741
00:36:42,325 --> 00:36:44,160
Are there any other numbers,
or is that it?

742
00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,838
Can you be done?
We've got a lot to do.

743
00:36:54,879 --> 00:36:57,340
Yeah, I... yeah, I can be done.

744
00:36:57,382 --> 00:36:58,383
Hello?

745
00:37:00,051 --> 00:37:03,138
I just want to reiterate, again,
how very honored I am

746
00:37:03,179 --> 00:37:04,806
to be entrusted
with these arrangements.

747
00:37:04,848 --> 00:37:06,474
Well, that's the hope.
But I should warn you,

748
00:37:06,516 --> 00:37:08,226
my husband was very specific.

749
00:37:08,268 --> 00:37:10,395
He wants to feel New York,
so I'm not sure if you even...

750
00:37:10,437 --> 00:37:12,230
Of course. Spring? Summer?

751
00:37:12,272 --> 00:37:15,150
- What was his favorite season?
- Spring. But specifically,

752
00:37:15,191 --> 00:37:17,152
- it should include tulips.
- We should start with my tulips.

753
00:37:17,193 --> 00:37:18,653
And I'm gonna want
a wide variety of colors...

754
00:37:18,695 --> 00:37:19,738
You won't believe
all the colors.

755
00:37:19,779 --> 00:37:21,239
Well, it's one thing to say it.

756
00:37:21,281 --> 00:37:23,491
But you need to see them.
Of course.

757
00:37:23,533 --> 00:37:25,535
[♪ soft cheerful music playing
over speakers]

758
00:37:28,413 --> 00:37:29,748
Your signature, please.

759
00:37:29,789 --> 00:37:31,875
And just the deposit
is due today.

760
00:37:32,709 --> 00:37:34,544
Um, Kathy, the succulent,

761
00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:36,838
the one that Henry
and Diane bought here,

762
00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:38,381
um, it's not doing well.

763
00:37:38,423 --> 00:37:40,258
- Oh, no.
- [Jamie] I know.

764
00:37:40,300 --> 00:37:42,469
I know, and I'm wondering
if maybe it wasn't in the...

765
00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:46,222
healthiest of conditions
when they got it?

766
00:37:46,264 --> 00:37:49,100
'Cause it doesn't seem like
they did anything wrong.

767
00:37:49,142 --> 00:37:51,436
And it's likely Diane
will be able to save it,

768
00:37:51,478 --> 00:37:54,355
- but it's just, you know, it's a little disappointing.
- [Kathy] Of course.

769
00:37:54,397 --> 00:37:56,232
- I... I'm so sorry.
- [Jamie] No, no, no.

770
00:37:56,274 --> 00:37:58,735
I only mention it
because of Henry.

771
00:37:58,777 --> 00:38:00,612
Because he just...
he loved plants,

772
00:38:00,653 --> 00:38:03,406
and they were very much
a passion of his.

773
00:38:04,449 --> 00:38:06,576
And your cousin recommended you.

774
00:38:06,618 --> 00:38:08,119
No. Say no more.

775
00:38:08,161 --> 00:38:09,871
Please, let me try
and make it right.

776
00:38:09,913 --> 00:38:11,039
30% off.

777
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:13,374
What? No. Oh, Kathy.

778
00:38:13,416 --> 00:38:15,001
- No, I insist.
- Thank you. Well, thank you.

779
00:38:17,629 --> 00:38:19,547
Take your victory lap quickly.

780
00:38:19,589 --> 00:38:21,382
Can you believe
this cold weather?

781
00:38:21,424 --> 00:38:24,052
I mean, I've been here a while,
but when you hear "desert,"

782
00:38:24,093 --> 00:38:25,470
- you think...
- [both] It's gotta be hot!

783
00:38:25,512 --> 00:38:26,596
- No.
- I know.

784
00:38:29,849 --> 00:38:31,768
So, maybe in a day or so,
we'll just give it

785
00:38:31,810 --> 00:38:33,436
a little misting.

786
00:38:35,313 --> 00:38:37,315
Are you picking out
some photos to display?

787
00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:39,901
Yes, I do have some ideas
for my husband's funeral.

788
00:38:39,943 --> 00:38:41,903
[Jamie chuckles]

789
00:38:41,945 --> 00:38:43,446
Oh, wow.

790
00:38:43,488 --> 00:38:44,489
Tyler.

791
00:38:46,115 --> 00:38:47,325
[Diane] [sighs] Yep.

792
00:38:47,367 --> 00:38:48,785
Always adorable.

793
00:38:57,627 --> 00:38:58,962
[Jamie] Aw.

794
00:38:59,003 --> 00:39:01,798
Tyler has this one
framed in his house.

795
00:39:01,840 --> 00:39:03,800
- Mm.
- [Jamie chuckles]

796
00:39:03,842 --> 00:39:05,301
Has he told you
a lot about his dad?

797
00:39:05,343 --> 00:39:06,636
Oh, yeah.

798
00:39:08,471 --> 00:39:09,931
I mean, mentioned, really.

799
00:39:09,973 --> 00:39:11,307
I mean, just like pieces, not...

800
00:39:12,475 --> 00:39:15,353
Well, I'll have to give you
more photos of them

801
00:39:15,395 --> 00:39:16,729
to take back to LA.

802
00:39:18,314 --> 00:39:19,691
For sure.

803
00:39:21,234 --> 00:39:22,777
Who's this kid?

804
00:39:22,819 --> 00:39:25,196
There's a lot of pictures
of them together.

805
00:39:25,238 --> 00:39:27,365
Is he a... Is he a cousin?

806
00:39:27,407 --> 00:39:29,450
No, that's Bobby,
his first boyfriend.

807
00:39:29,492 --> 00:39:31,327
[laughing]

808
00:39:34,747 --> 00:39:36,124
What?

809
00:39:36,165 --> 00:39:37,166
No!

810
00:39:38,167 --> 00:39:39,419
They're like, what, 11?

811
00:39:40,336 --> 00:39:41,796
Ten.

812
00:39:41,838 --> 00:39:43,172
They didn't say
they were boyfriends,

813
00:39:43,214 --> 00:39:44,632
but I knew.

814
00:39:44,674 --> 00:39:46,801
I actually caught them once.
They didn't see me,

815
00:39:46,843 --> 00:39:48,720
but yeah,
I caught them exploring.

816
00:39:48,761 --> 00:39:50,263
Nothing scandalous.

817
00:39:52,015 --> 00:39:53,975
- That had to be rough.
- Why?

818
00:39:54,017 --> 00:39:55,810
I told you,
I always knew he was gay.

819
00:39:55,852 --> 00:39:57,854
Well, it's one thing to know,
it's another thing to see them...

820
00:39:57,896 --> 00:39:59,480
I mean, what did you even say?

821
00:39:59,522 --> 00:40:02,191
I said nothing, to this day.

822
00:40:02,233 --> 00:40:04,485
I never wanted him to feel
that anything was wrong

823
00:40:04,527 --> 00:40:06,863
with what they were doing
or what they might be feeling.

824
00:40:10,283 --> 00:40:11,784
Wow, that's, um...

825
00:40:13,953 --> 00:40:15,038
Okay.

826
00:40:15,788 --> 00:40:18,666
So, uh, are Tyler
and Bobby still in touch?

827
00:40:18,708 --> 00:40:20,668
- I imagine so. Why?
- I don't know.

828
00:40:20,710 --> 00:40:23,046
You know, he was cute.
At least then.

829
00:40:23,755 --> 00:40:27,258
He's hot now.
Big-time interior designer.

830
00:40:27,300 --> 00:40:29,260
Great taste.

831
00:40:29,302 --> 00:40:31,346
He actually lives in LA, too.

832
00:40:31,387 --> 00:40:33,723
I'm surprised
you've never met him.

833
00:40:33,765 --> 00:40:36,184
I mean, you know,
Tyler doesn't include me

834
00:40:36,225 --> 00:40:37,226
in all of his circles,

835
00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:39,604
and he does not want
for friends.

836
00:40:39,646 --> 00:40:42,899
I imagine he does not want for
more than just friends, either.

837
00:40:42,941 --> 00:40:44,901
Not if he's still like he was
when he came out.

838
00:40:44,943 --> 00:40:46,694
Maybe even before he came out.

839
00:40:46,736 --> 00:40:48,529
I don't know, I just know
there was a revolving door

840
00:40:48,571 --> 00:40:50,031
of men who fell for Tyler.
[chuckles]

841
00:40:50,073 --> 00:40:51,449
[chuckles awkwardly]

842
00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:55,745
Well, maybe one day Tyler
will introduce you to Bobby.

843
00:40:57,455 --> 00:40:58,957
Yeah.
If he does, he does.

844
00:40:58,998 --> 00:40:59,999
Mm.

845
00:41:01,334 --> 00:41:02,709
[♪ Muzak playing in store]

846
00:41:02,710 --> 00:41:05,088
So, have you ever gone
through the revolving door?

847
00:41:06,255 --> 00:41:07,548
What?

848
00:41:07,590 --> 00:41:09,425
Tyler's revolving door.

849
00:41:10,510 --> 00:41:13,763
- No, we're just friends.
- Not even for a night?

850
00:41:13,805 --> 00:41:17,058
The night you two met,
when you "offered yourself up"?

851
00:41:17,100 --> 00:41:19,769
That's not...
I went home alone.

852
00:41:20,812 --> 00:41:22,814
No, Tyler and I agreed
from early on

853
00:41:22,855 --> 00:41:26,609
that our relationship
was different, what with work.

854
00:41:26,651 --> 00:41:28,987
Oh, so there was
talk of it, though?

855
00:41:30,029 --> 00:41:32,239
- Oh, inevitably.
- Inevitably?

856
00:41:32,240 --> 00:41:34,242
Inevitably. You know, you spend
a lot of time with someone,

857
00:41:34,283 --> 00:41:36,285
you get to know them,
you start to care for them.

858
00:41:36,327 --> 00:41:38,788
Yeah, you can inevitably
start to wonder.

859
00:41:38,830 --> 00:41:41,124
- And you did?
- Well, we both did.

860
00:41:41,165 --> 00:41:43,584
We both wondered, but we agreed,

861
00:41:43,626 --> 00:41:45,420
uh, we decided on friendship.

862
00:41:45,461 --> 00:41:46,921
- Who decided?
- We both did.

863
00:41:47,964 --> 00:41:49,924
- Quit trying to cut him out of this.
- No, I... I... [scoffs]

864
00:41:49,966 --> 00:41:51,426
- [chuckles]
- I just... I know Tyler

865
00:41:51,467 --> 00:41:53,136
in relationships.
I don't know you.

866
00:41:54,303 --> 00:41:56,347
Well, rest assured,
we went down that road together,

867
00:41:56,389 --> 00:41:57,974
and we got off
that road together.

868
00:41:58,016 --> 00:41:59,600
- [Diane] Mm-hmm.
- At a certain point,

869
00:41:59,642 --> 00:42:01,144
I expressed feelings for Tyler,

870
00:42:01,185 --> 00:42:03,521
and Tyler in turn
expressed feelings for me,

871
00:42:03,563 --> 00:42:05,982
but he also admitted
he wasn't there yet

872
00:42:06,024 --> 00:42:08,192
and wasn't ready
for a relationship.

873
00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:10,610
Oh, so you went further down
the road than he did?

874
00:42:10,611 --> 00:42:12,655
- Oh, my God.
- I'm just trying to clarify.

875
00:42:12,697 --> 00:42:14,115
No, you're trying
to interrogate,

876
00:42:14,157 --> 00:42:16,284
and there's nothing
to interrogate.

877
00:42:16,325 --> 00:42:17,452
I know my life, Diane.

878
00:42:17,493 --> 00:42:19,370
I know my life with Tyler.
Trust me.

879
00:42:19,412 --> 00:42:20,455
- Understood.
- Thank you.

880
00:42:20,496 --> 00:42:21,998
We'll just leave it
at that, then.

881
00:42:22,040 --> 00:42:24,291
- Great.
- You expressed your feelings.

882
00:42:24,292 --> 00:42:26,961
Tyler had similar ones,
but he wasn't there yet.

883
00:42:27,003 --> 00:42:30,673
And at a certain point,
you decided to just be friends.

884
00:42:33,009 --> 00:42:34,634
There's a little more
to it than that.

885
00:42:34,635 --> 00:42:37,180
Well, that's all I know.
Maybe we do a charcuterie board.

886
00:42:37,221 --> 00:42:38,973
At a certain point,
Tyler did say

887
00:42:39,015 --> 00:42:40,683
he was open to an "us."

888
00:42:40,725 --> 00:42:42,143
I don't have to be in the know.

889
00:42:42,185 --> 00:42:43,643
Well, this is just
so you understand.

890
00:42:43,644 --> 00:42:45,146
This was after we decided
on friendship.

891
00:42:45,188 --> 00:42:47,023
It was actually
a good while after.

892
00:42:47,065 --> 00:42:48,357
Okay.

893
00:42:48,399 --> 00:42:50,568
It was on my birthday, actually.

894
00:42:50,610 --> 00:42:53,738
Tyler took me to dinner,
and that's when he said it.

895
00:42:53,780 --> 00:42:56,157
Out of nowhere, he said
he was open to an "us,"

896
00:42:56,199 --> 00:42:58,493
and I was taken aback.

897
00:42:58,534 --> 00:43:00,828
I mean, in a good way.
And I smiled

898
00:43:00,870 --> 00:43:03,830
and said something like,
"I would love that."

899
00:43:03,831 --> 00:43:07,168
And then, we proceeded
to have a very nice dinner.

900
00:43:07,210 --> 00:43:09,378
And then, I went back
to my apartment,

901
00:43:09,420 --> 00:43:14,050
and I woke up to a voicemail
from Tyler the next day...

902
00:43:16,302 --> 00:43:17,804
taking it all back.

903
00:43:20,932 --> 00:43:23,226
Yeah, Tyler said he got home
and he panicked,

904
00:43:23,267 --> 00:43:25,895
and apologized that this
was all happening

905
00:43:25,937 --> 00:43:27,855
on my birthday.

906
00:43:27,897 --> 00:43:30,358
Uh, but yeah,
he was still conflicted.

907
00:43:30,399 --> 00:43:33,653
- About what?
- About the idea of me with him.

908
00:43:34,612 --> 00:43:36,739
We all have types.

909
00:43:36,781 --> 00:43:38,616
It's just the way it is.

910
00:43:38,658 --> 00:43:40,910
And Tyler was worried
that he would ultimately end up

911
00:43:40,952 --> 00:43:43,162
just hurting me
and ruining our friendship.

912
00:43:44,080 --> 00:43:46,040
Needless to say,
I was pissed and I told him

913
00:43:46,082 --> 00:43:48,292
I needed to take
some time alone...

914
00:43:49,502 --> 00:43:50,878
and that I didn't wanna
hear from him,

915
00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:52,630
and he was not
to reach out to me.

916
00:43:52,672 --> 00:43:54,090
And he said he understood.

917
00:43:54,132 --> 00:43:55,883
I mean, he had no choice
but to understand.

918
00:43:55,925 --> 00:43:57,385
And he was also to understand

919
00:43:57,426 --> 00:43:59,053
that if I was to come back,

920
00:43:59,095 --> 00:44:00,930
it would be on my terms.

921
00:44:00,972 --> 00:44:03,141
- And you came back?
- Yeah.

922
00:44:03,182 --> 00:44:06,269
But in the way
that I wanted to... needed to.

923
00:44:06,310 --> 00:44:08,938
And you're okay with that?
With things between you two

924
00:44:08,980 --> 00:44:10,481
not being the way you want?

925
00:44:10,523 --> 00:44:11,941
Yeah, obviously.
I'm here.

926
00:44:13,192 --> 00:44:15,403
Okay. Just making sure.

927
00:44:15,444 --> 00:44:17,446
I know it's not easy
to let go of my son.

928
00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:27,123
[♪ gentle music playing]

929
00:44:36,549 --> 00:44:38,009
- You got it?
- Yep.

930
00:44:38,050 --> 00:44:39,051
Alright.

931
00:44:47,393 --> 00:44:49,020
- Did you move the painting?
- I did.

932
00:44:49,061 --> 00:44:50,521
I thought maybe you would
want it out of the way.

933
00:44:50,563 --> 00:44:52,106
No, I need it where it was.
Put it back.

934
00:44:52,148 --> 00:44:53,149
Please.

935
00:44:54,483 --> 00:44:56,694
- Of course. I'm sorry.
- It's alright.

936
00:44:58,863 --> 00:45:00,031
[Diane sighs]

937
00:45:03,826 --> 00:45:07,371
How do you feel about me
boxing some of that up?

938
00:45:08,915 --> 00:45:12,043
I could look into some
take-back programs.

939
00:45:12,084 --> 00:45:13,960
That's what I did
with my parents' medication.

940
00:45:13,961 --> 00:45:16,339
It's just a place
to properly dispose of it.

941
00:45:16,380 --> 00:45:17,381
Fine.

942
00:45:19,383 --> 00:45:21,344
Wow, that's a great picture
of Henry.

943
00:45:21,385 --> 00:45:23,679
Is it... is that your place
in New York?

944
00:45:23,721 --> 00:45:25,640
[Diane] Loft in Chelsea.

945
00:45:25,681 --> 00:45:27,683
- [Jamie] So, these are all of your choices?
- [Diane] Mm-hmm.

946
00:45:27,725 --> 00:45:29,352
Okay.

947
00:45:29,393 --> 00:45:31,562
- What?
- Nothing.

948
00:45:31,604 --> 00:45:35,149
No, go ahead.
"Get off" on your opinion.

949
00:45:35,191 --> 00:45:36,901
It just seems like it's
a lot of Henry

950
00:45:36,943 --> 00:45:38,569
from your time back east.

951
00:45:38,611 --> 00:45:42,573
- Where we spent 26 years.
- Well, and here for over three,

952
00:45:42,615 --> 00:45:44,367
and a lot of the people
who are gonna be attending...

953
00:45:44,408 --> 00:45:47,494
This is not about them.
This is about Henry.

954
00:45:47,495 --> 00:45:50,122
And New York was
our happy place, not just mine.

955
00:45:54,252 --> 00:45:56,087
- Diane, it's okay to embrace...
- This is Henry!

956
00:46:02,885 --> 00:46:03,886
Yes.

957
00:46:11,727 --> 00:46:13,354
With my parents,

958
00:46:13,396 --> 00:46:17,357
I remember I just...
I had the hardest time

959
00:46:17,358 --> 00:46:19,568
picking out pictures of them
to display.

960
00:46:19,610 --> 00:46:22,780
And I'm just speaking
for myself here.

961
00:46:24,907 --> 00:46:27,618
You know, I just wanted
to see them at their best.

962
00:46:27,660 --> 00:46:30,454
And then, I would look at these
pictures that I had taken later

963
00:46:30,496 --> 00:46:32,540
when their bodies had been...

964
00:46:32,581 --> 00:46:35,459
When I knew
what was happening in there.

965
00:46:35,501 --> 00:46:37,044
And these...
and these pictures were just...

966
00:46:37,086 --> 00:46:38,963
It was little stuff,
candid things, you know.

967
00:46:39,005 --> 00:46:41,966
It was them laughing,
or reading, or...

968
00:46:42,967 --> 00:46:44,802
sitting on the porch
or the couch

969
00:46:44,844 --> 00:46:46,429
holding hands and...

970
00:46:48,764 --> 00:46:51,558
I don't know, I guess I realized
those were the moments

971
00:46:51,559 --> 00:46:53,853
that I was really seeing them
at their best.

972
00:46:55,771 --> 00:46:57,940
That despite everything,
they were just...

973
00:46:59,442 --> 00:47:00,443
being.

974
00:47:04,697 --> 00:47:06,240
- Okay.
- What?

975
00:47:06,282 --> 00:47:08,117
No, I hear you.

976
00:47:08,159 --> 00:47:09,618
- It's just a thought.
- [sighs]

977
00:47:09,660 --> 00:47:11,620
No, you have a very good point.

978
00:47:14,290 --> 00:47:16,334
[insects chirring]

979
00:47:17,126 --> 00:47:19,003
[owl hooting]

980
00:47:19,045 --> 00:47:20,046
[light clicks]

981
00:47:23,966 --> 00:47:25,343
- Oh, thank you.
- Sure.

982
00:47:26,427 --> 00:47:28,304
If you need another blanket,
just let me know.

983
00:47:28,346 --> 00:47:30,473
Oh, no, I'm sure
that's... that's fine.

984
00:47:30,514 --> 00:47:33,768
- Thank you very much.
- I appreciate you being so open

985
00:47:33,809 --> 00:47:35,186
about your parents.

986
00:47:35,227 --> 00:47:36,395
Of course.

987
00:47:42,985 --> 00:47:45,237
For me, toward the end
with Henry...

988
00:47:46,238 --> 00:47:48,449
we... we didn't know
it was the end.

989
00:47:48,491 --> 00:47:50,993
And had I known,
I would never have...

990
00:47:52,536 --> 00:47:55,289
[clearing throat] One night,
Henry had taken a fall.

991
00:47:55,331 --> 00:47:58,125
He had been sleeping
out here for a while.

992
00:47:58,167 --> 00:48:00,294
Navigating had become difficult.

993
00:48:00,336 --> 00:48:02,797
And he fell trying
to get to the bathroom.

994
00:48:02,838 --> 00:48:05,132
I was sleeping in...
in our bedroom.

995
00:48:06,175 --> 00:48:10,179
His voice had become weak
and gravelly by then, so...

996
00:48:13,849 --> 00:48:15,726
I don't know how long
he had been...

997
00:48:29,031 --> 00:48:32,034
So, I don't know how long he had
been calling out for help.

998
00:48:34,036 --> 00:48:36,580
He had soiled himself,
and I tried to get him up.

999
00:48:36,622 --> 00:48:38,666
I couldn't,
so I ran to the neighbors,

1000
00:48:38,707 --> 00:48:41,210
the newer neighbors
just a few doors down.

1001
00:48:41,252 --> 00:48:42,711
Uh, Henry knew them.

1002
00:48:42,753 --> 00:48:45,548
Of course,
I hadn't even bothered to...

1003
00:48:48,717 --> 00:48:51,887
[sighs heavily]
I pounded on the door,

1004
00:48:51,929 --> 00:48:53,597
and the young man answers.

1005
00:48:53,639 --> 00:48:55,141
[sighs, groans]

1006
00:48:56,058 --> 00:48:57,893
Chris, I should say his name.
Chris.

1007
00:48:58,936 --> 00:49:00,104
I don't think I...

1008
00:49:02,148 --> 00:49:03,899
explained much,
maybe three words,

1009
00:49:03,941 --> 00:49:05,443
"Henry had fallen,"

1010
00:49:05,484 --> 00:49:07,027
and Chris was already
on his way.

1011
00:49:07,069 --> 00:49:08,612
He came right in,
he swooped Henry up

1012
00:49:08,654 --> 00:49:10,614
like nothing, like air.

1013
00:49:10,656 --> 00:49:11,907
And Henry said...

1014
00:49:12,950 --> 00:49:15,536
"My Prince Charming, you came."

1015
00:49:15,578 --> 00:49:17,121
[chuckles]

1016
00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:20,082
Chris laughed and Henry laughed,

1017
00:49:20,124 --> 00:49:23,252
and I said, "Well,
that's a stupid fucking joke."

1018
00:49:24,503 --> 00:49:26,088
I yelled it, actually.

1019
00:49:27,256 --> 00:49:28,716
I was so mad,

1020
00:49:28,757 --> 00:49:31,469
so mad at having to make
everything bearable.

1021
00:49:31,510 --> 00:49:33,721
And... and this is just
so you understand

1022
00:49:33,762 --> 00:49:35,431
why I need that painting there.

1023
00:49:37,141 --> 00:49:38,476
'Cause I hate it.

1024
00:49:38,517 --> 00:49:40,728
Like I hated that joke,

1025
00:49:40,769 --> 00:49:43,230
because it reminds me
of how I was.

1026
00:49:43,272 --> 00:49:45,065
I-I don't see the beauty
of him painting it.

1027
00:49:45,107 --> 00:49:48,611
I see the tragedy of him
not finishing it.

1028
00:49:48,652 --> 00:49:52,071
I see me hating his body because
it wouldn't listen to him,

1029
00:49:52,072 --> 00:49:54,617
hating how long it took him
to put on his seat belt,

1030
00:49:54,658 --> 00:49:56,660
or to find the breath
to tell a story

1031
00:49:56,702 --> 00:49:58,746
he told so many times before.

1032
00:49:58,787 --> 00:50:00,498
I see me... [sighs]

1033
00:50:00,539 --> 00:50:02,583
...angry and frustrated
and short,

1034
00:50:02,625 --> 00:50:04,043
and I see Henry...

1035
00:50:05,794 --> 00:50:08,297
patient and joyful and loving...

1036
00:50:09,340 --> 00:50:11,759
all for me so <i>I'd</i> feel better.

1037
00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:13,302
The one who wasn't dying.

1038
00:50:14,970 --> 00:50:17,932
When I look at that,
I see me still here

1039
00:50:17,973 --> 00:50:20,100
without the only man
who ever truly knew me,

1040
00:50:20,142 --> 00:50:22,520
everything about me,

1041
00:50:22,561 --> 00:50:25,022
and stayed despite that.
[chuckles]

1042
00:50:26,482 --> 00:50:28,192
I need that there so I see me.

1043
00:50:32,154 --> 00:50:33,613
Good night.

1044
00:50:33,614 --> 00:50:36,492
[♪ gentle music playing]

1045
00:50:39,537 --> 00:50:40,538
[light clicks]

1046
00:50:41,163 --> 00:50:43,624
[insects chirring]

1047
00:50:43,666 --> 00:50:45,251
[phone buzzing]

1048
00:50:47,086 --> 00:50:48,504
[phone buzzing]

1049
00:50:53,092 --> 00:50:55,094
[phone continues buzzing]

1050
00:51:00,391 --> 00:51:02,393
[birdsong]

1051
00:51:08,691 --> 00:51:09,692
[approaching footsteps]

1052
00:51:12,111 --> 00:51:13,112
[door creaking]

1053
00:51:16,198 --> 00:51:17,992
I selected a few options
for scripture readings

1054
00:51:18,033 --> 00:51:21,829
for the service, ones that
I know Henry was fond of

1055
00:51:21,870 --> 00:51:24,415
- from our Bible study class.
- Okay.

1056
00:51:24,456 --> 00:51:27,001
There's John 15:11.

1057
00:51:27,042 --> 00:51:29,837
"That My joy may remain in you

1058
00:51:29,878 --> 00:51:31,714
and that your joy may be full."

1059
00:51:32,715 --> 00:51:35,259
- Well... - There's also
John 14, one through three...

1060
00:51:35,301 --> 00:51:37,678
Okay, I will trust you
with the Bible stuff.

1061
00:51:37,720 --> 00:51:39,597
Uh, one area
that is very import...

1062
00:51:39,638 --> 00:51:42,182
- [doors banging]
- Sorry I'm late.

1063
00:51:42,224 --> 00:51:44,101
[minister]
Diane, you know Judith?

1064
00:51:44,143 --> 00:51:45,352
Of course.

1065
00:51:45,394 --> 00:51:47,271
Judith is our choir director.

1066
00:51:47,313 --> 00:51:48,522
[Judith] Let's get this
party started.

1067
00:51:48,564 --> 00:51:49,857
Okay. Hey, neighbor.

1068
00:51:49,898 --> 00:51:51,567
[minister] And seeing that Henry
was a beloved member

1069
00:51:51,609 --> 00:51:53,193
of our choir,

1070
00:51:53,235 --> 00:51:55,946
I know that music selection
needs to be special.

1071
00:51:55,988 --> 00:51:58,532
Yes, a-actually, that...
that's what I was...

1072
00:51:58,574 --> 00:52:00,868
- Henry was very specific.
- [minister] Even better.

1073
00:52:00,909 --> 00:52:03,579
Yeah, he wants the Beach Boys'
"God Only Knows"

1074
00:52:03,621 --> 00:52:05,539
as people arrive,

1075
00:52:05,581 --> 00:52:07,916
and "You're the First,
My Last, My Everything"

1076
00:52:07,958 --> 00:52:09,460
as they leave.

1077
00:52:09,501 --> 00:52:11,754
- That's, uh, Barry White. Yes.
- Yes.

1078
00:52:11,795 --> 00:52:13,881
Barry White.
Wonderful talent.

1079
00:52:13,922 --> 00:52:16,383
- [minister] Well...
- And I mention this

1080
00:52:16,425 --> 00:52:17,551
because of Henry.

1081
00:52:17,593 --> 00:52:19,470
Music was his passion.

1082
00:52:19,511 --> 00:52:21,805
Singing brought him immense joy.

1083
00:52:21,847 --> 00:52:25,267
Typically, only traditional
hymns are used

1084
00:52:25,309 --> 00:52:27,561
- because... No, listen...
- Seeing... seeing as how much Henry

1085
00:52:27,603 --> 00:52:29,146
was a part of this church,

1086
00:52:29,188 --> 00:52:31,065
and how much the church
meant to him,

1087
00:52:31,106 --> 00:52:32,608
to not have these songs

1088
00:52:32,650 --> 00:52:34,985
would just be
a huge disappointment.

1089
00:52:35,944 --> 00:52:37,196
Well, um...

1090
00:52:38,322 --> 00:52:41,784
These are lovely
and spirited choices, Diane.

1091
00:52:41,825 --> 00:52:43,952
And one has "God" in the title.

1092
00:52:44,787 --> 00:52:46,622
[sighs] Yes, but, um,

1093
00:52:46,664 --> 00:52:49,667
may I suggest something
more appropriate?

1094
00:52:50,584 --> 00:52:54,296
I mean, that I know Henry
would love to hear us all sing.

1095
00:52:55,464 --> 00:52:58,592
I'm thinking, uh, "Guide Me,
O Thou Great Redeemer."

1096
00:52:58,634 --> 00:53:00,260
- [minister] Oh. Perfect.
- Oh, it's so good.

1097
00:53:00,302 --> 00:53:03,931
And "Tis So Sweet
to Trust in Jesus."

1098
00:53:03,972 --> 00:53:05,849
- [Diane] Mm.
- It's a big hit.

1099
00:53:05,891 --> 00:53:07,518
- Really big hit.
- Yes.

1100
00:53:08,394 --> 00:53:10,521
And how do you know Henry
would love these hymns?

1101
00:53:11,522 --> 00:53:13,607
Because of the joy
I would see on his face

1102
00:53:13,649 --> 00:53:15,526
- when he was singing them.
- Oh.

1103
00:53:15,567 --> 00:53:17,111
Mm, thank you, Judith.

1104
00:53:17,152 --> 00:53:18,612
Of course, yes.

1105
00:53:18,654 --> 00:53:22,324
Thank you for that
big bowl of bullshit.

1106
00:53:23,867 --> 00:53:26,203
- [door slamming]
- Traditional fucking hymns only!

1107
00:53:26,245 --> 00:53:27,371
What?

1108
00:53:27,413 --> 00:53:29,123
Those people are unbelievable!

1109
00:53:29,164 --> 00:53:30,456
- Who?
- The church!

1110
00:53:30,457 --> 00:53:32,960
They shot down my songs
like I knew they would!

1111
00:53:33,001 --> 00:53:34,211
Okay, just give me a second.

1112
00:53:34,253 --> 00:53:36,839
[groaning] Yes. Yes.

1113
00:53:37,923 --> 00:53:39,341
- [exclaiming]
- Why didn't you wake me up?

1114
00:53:39,383 --> 00:53:40,634
I could have gone with you.

1115
00:53:40,676 --> 00:53:43,220
Because I'm capable!
I wanted to be capable!

1116
00:53:43,262 --> 00:53:45,138
[Jamie] Well, maybe I could
talk to them.

1117
00:53:45,139 --> 00:53:46,807
[Diane] And do what,
something I couldn't?

1118
00:53:46,849 --> 00:53:48,642
No, I... Did you
tell 'em about the list?

1119
00:53:48,684 --> 00:53:50,644
Of course I told them
about the list!

1120
00:53:50,686 --> 00:53:52,980
O-Okay, look, you're a little
emotional right now.

1121
00:53:53,021 --> 00:53:55,315
What if I go back there
and then...

1122
00:53:55,357 --> 00:53:56,817
and try to reason with them?

1123
00:53:56,859 --> 00:53:58,318
Good luck with Judith Bibbs.

1124
00:53:58,360 --> 00:53:59,486
Who?

1125
00:53:59,528 --> 00:54:01,029
Do these look
like chihuahua to you?

1126
00:54:01,864 --> 00:54:04,491
Wait. What?

1127
00:54:04,533 --> 00:54:07,536
[♪ dramatic music playing]

1128
00:54:09,246 --> 00:54:10,247
Diane!

1129
00:54:15,711 --> 00:54:16,712
Diane!

1130
00:54:18,630 --> 00:54:19,882
Diane!

1131
00:54:22,968 --> 00:54:24,178
What are you doing?

1132
00:54:24,219 --> 00:54:25,596
What does it look
like I'm doing?

1133
00:54:25,637 --> 00:54:26,930
I'm ending hope.

1134
00:54:26,972 --> 00:54:29,224
- Are you insane?
- What? I'm giving her closure.

1135
00:54:29,266 --> 00:54:30,850
Well, you're gonna give her
a heart attack.

1136
00:54:30,851 --> 00:54:33,061
Well, she acted like she knew
Henry better than me.

1137
00:54:34,730 --> 00:54:36,064
[laughing]

1138
00:54:38,233 --> 00:54:40,778
- Oh, you find this funny?
- Yes! Yes, I do.

1139
00:54:40,819 --> 00:54:43,697
I'm watching a woman
throw chicken bones into a yard,

1140
00:54:43,739 --> 00:54:47,034
hoping that another woman thinks
it's pieces of her chihuahua.

1141
00:54:47,075 --> 00:54:50,162
A chihuahua that got
carried off by a hawk.

1142
00:54:51,079 --> 00:54:52,414
[laughing] So, yeah.

1143
00:54:52,456 --> 00:54:53,957
Yeah, yeah,
I'm laughing at that.

1144
00:54:53,999 --> 00:54:58,212
[laughing] Well, that's my...
That's my humor.

1145
00:54:58,253 --> 00:54:59,421
[Diane sighs]

1146
00:55:00,255 --> 00:55:01,590
[exhales]

1147
00:55:02,758 --> 00:55:05,969
[sighs] I just wanted it
to be what Henry wanted.

1148
00:55:08,972 --> 00:55:10,098
I know.

1149
00:55:11,099 --> 00:55:12,726
[exhales sharply]

1150
00:55:12,768 --> 00:55:14,353
We need to pick up these bones.

1151
00:55:15,771 --> 00:55:17,439
Okay, let's see.

1152
00:55:17,481 --> 00:55:18,982
That's three over here.

1153
00:55:19,024 --> 00:55:20,233
- There's some more.
- Oh.

1154
00:55:20,234 --> 00:55:21,568
- I think that is one.
- [car horn honking]

1155
00:55:21,610 --> 00:55:22,820
- Oh, shit.
- Shit.

1156
00:55:22,861 --> 00:55:23,904
[Judith] Hey!

1157
00:55:24,655 --> 00:55:26,323
- What's going on?
- [Diane clearing throat]

1158
00:55:26,365 --> 00:55:27,741
[Diane]
Nothing, everything's fine.

1159
00:55:27,783 --> 00:55:29,743
- [laughing]
- Um, we were...

1160
00:55:29,785 --> 00:55:31,829
We were just, um...
I did a...

1161
00:55:31,870 --> 00:55:34,164
[laughing]
Where are you going?

1162
00:55:34,206 --> 00:55:36,250
- Um...
- [Judith] I didn't hear her.

1163
00:55:36,291 --> 00:55:39,044
I... No, I... I thought I left
my shirt out here.

1164
00:55:39,878 --> 00:55:42,589
But, uh, nope.

1165
00:55:42,631 --> 00:55:44,174
See you, Judy.

1166
00:55:45,133 --> 00:55:46,426
It's Judith.

1167
00:55:46,468 --> 00:55:48,971
[Jamie and Diane laughing]

1168
00:55:49,012 --> 00:55:51,098
Judith so thinks
we're sleeping together.

1169
00:55:51,139 --> 00:55:52,766
[both laughing]

1170
00:55:52,808 --> 00:55:54,268
If God is kind.

1171
00:55:54,309 --> 00:55:55,853
[both chuckle]

1172
00:55:56,854 --> 00:55:58,313
[Jamie sighs]

1173
00:55:58,355 --> 00:56:00,482
[owl hooting]

1174
00:56:00,524 --> 00:56:02,484
You can see so many stars here.

1175
00:56:03,485 --> 00:56:04,486
[Diane] Yeah.

1176
00:56:05,737 --> 00:56:07,239
This part, I don't hate.

1177
00:56:08,156 --> 00:56:10,158
[insects chirring]

1178
00:56:12,661 --> 00:56:13,829
Do you think you'll stay?

1179
00:56:15,163 --> 00:56:16,999
No. There's nothing here.

1180
00:56:24,423 --> 00:56:27,301
Well, as much as I love
a liquid dinner...

1181
00:56:27,342 --> 00:56:29,636
- Oh, sure. [sighs]
- Will you take care of the fire?

1182
00:56:29,678 --> 00:56:30,679
Yes.

1183
00:56:34,433 --> 00:56:35,851
[smacks legs]
Hmm.

1184
00:56:38,103 --> 00:56:39,897
[phone buzzing]

1185
00:56:41,023 --> 00:56:42,691
[phone buzzing]

1186
00:56:48,363 --> 00:56:50,782
[phone buzzing]

1187
00:57:06,381 --> 00:57:07,633
[phone buzzing]

1188
00:57:13,889 --> 00:57:17,935
Would it be crazy if we opened
another bottle of wine?

1189
00:57:17,976 --> 00:57:20,896
- Or would that... - My son wants
to know how I took the news.

1190
00:57:21,939 --> 00:57:23,732
"How'd my mom take the news?"

1191
00:57:25,275 --> 00:57:27,069
I assume he's not coming.

1192
00:57:29,404 --> 00:57:30,405
I was gonna tell you.

1193
00:57:31,490 --> 00:57:33,158
Because it's still not safe?

1194
00:57:33,992 --> 00:57:35,243
Yes, unfortunately.

1195
00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:40,123
- Actually, there's more.
- Okay, well...

1196
00:57:40,165 --> 00:57:41,583
Ah.

1197
00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:44,294
"How'd my mom take the news?
I imagine she's pissed.

1198
00:57:44,336 --> 00:57:45,504
"But I thought about...

1199
00:57:46,755 --> 00:57:49,424
"what you said,
and you're right.

1200
00:57:49,466 --> 00:57:51,802
It's not my responsibility."

1201
00:57:51,843 --> 00:57:53,512
[smacking lips]

1202
00:57:54,596 --> 00:57:56,556
- I can explain.
- Open your phone.

1203
00:57:56,598 --> 00:57:59,059
- I... Diane, I can't.
- Fuck your cone of silence.

1204
00:57:59,101 --> 00:58:01,979
"Not my responsibility"?
That sounds awfully familiar.

1205
00:58:02,020 --> 00:58:03,105
That's not exactly what I said.

1206
00:58:03,146 --> 00:58:04,439
Well, then let's see
what you said.

1207
00:58:04,481 --> 00:58:05,774
Diane, I can explain.

1208
00:58:05,816 --> 00:58:07,567
Nothing you can explain
is to be trusted.

1209
00:58:07,609 --> 00:58:09,987
This, I'll trust.
Open your phone.

1210
00:58:10,028 --> 00:58:12,072
It's not that easy, Diane, I...

1211
00:58:12,114 --> 00:58:14,116
- [phone clicking]
- Great. It is that easy.

1212
00:58:14,157 --> 00:58:15,158
Ah!

1213
00:58:16,868 --> 00:58:18,370
[Diane exhales sharply]

1214
00:58:19,371 --> 00:58:20,956
Hmm.

1215
00:58:20,998 --> 00:58:22,332
Quite an exchange.

1216
00:58:23,500 --> 00:58:24,501
Mm-hmm.

1217
00:58:25,293 --> 00:58:26,753
Hm!

1218
00:58:26,795 --> 00:58:27,921
Wow. [chuckles]

1219
00:58:27,963 --> 00:58:29,965
Apparently, they did
get the interview.

1220
00:58:30,007 --> 00:58:32,259
[inhales sharply]
"It was a bit harrowing,

1221
00:58:32,300 --> 00:58:34,845
"but we made it
in and out safely.

1222
00:58:34,886 --> 00:58:36,304
We're back at the hotel."

1223
00:58:37,389 --> 00:58:39,141
I guess you just misspoke.

1224
00:58:40,475 --> 00:58:41,935
- It did become safe.
- Mm-hmm?

1225
00:58:41,977 --> 00:58:43,854
- But then it... - No, no,
no, no, no. No spoilers.

1226
00:58:43,895 --> 00:58:45,063
[inhales deeply]

1227
00:58:49,901 --> 00:58:52,571
Did Tyler actually
ponder coming?

1228
00:58:55,741 --> 00:58:58,160
He asked me what I thought
he should do.

1229
00:58:58,201 --> 00:58:59,327
"He should do."

1230
00:59:00,245 --> 00:59:03,999
"Your responsibility is to you,
Tyler, not anyone else."

1231
00:59:05,333 --> 00:59:07,836
Apparently, that's exactly
what you said. Mm-hmm.

1232
00:59:09,254 --> 00:59:12,424
[scoffs] "I'll te..." Oh.
"I'll tell her it wasn't safe.

1233
00:59:13,341 --> 00:59:16,303
"She already knows
that's a strong possibility.

1234
00:59:16,344 --> 00:59:19,639
I'll handle things here.
It'll be fine."

1235
00:59:19,681 --> 00:59:22,809
You didn't just quiet his mind,
you made up his mind!

1236
00:59:22,851 --> 00:59:24,853
- I didn't make up...
- "I'm grateful for you,

1237
00:59:24,895 --> 00:59:27,022
but I'm bummed
I won't get to see you."

1238
00:59:27,064 --> 00:59:28,523
Aw!

1239
00:59:28,565 --> 00:59:30,400
"Miss you, love you, Jamie."

1240
00:59:30,442 --> 00:59:32,569
"Miss you, love you,
Tyler."

1241
00:59:32,611 --> 00:59:34,279
What a great read!

1242
00:59:37,074 --> 00:59:38,075
[Diane sighs]

1243
00:59:42,454 --> 00:59:43,914
- I'm sorry, Diane...
- No!

1244
00:59:47,167 --> 00:59:48,668
I'll, uh, pack my things.

1245
00:59:48,710 --> 00:59:49,669
Why?

1246
00:59:49,711 --> 00:59:50,712
[sighs]

1247
00:59:50,879 --> 00:59:52,839
You think your job is done?

1248
00:59:52,881 --> 00:59:56,176
Well, I think,
given the circumstances...

1249
00:59:56,218 --> 00:59:58,095
[Diane] The circumstances?

1250
00:59:58,136 --> 00:59:59,596
The circumstances!

1251
00:59:59,638 --> 01:00:01,890
The circumstances
haven't changed!

1252
01:00:01,932 --> 01:00:04,434
Just more disappointment.
[chuckles weakly]

1253
01:00:04,476 --> 01:00:07,270
That, I...
That, I can manage!

1254
01:00:07,312 --> 01:00:09,022
Plus, like you said,

1255
01:00:09,064 --> 01:00:11,525
"We always knew
this was a strong possibility.

1256
01:00:11,566 --> 01:00:13,693
I'll handle things here.
It'll be fine."

1257
01:00:13,735 --> 01:00:15,195
Your words! So, yeah,

1258
01:00:15,237 --> 01:00:17,155
you can keep handling things!

1259
01:00:20,992 --> 01:00:22,160
[door slams]

1260
01:00:32,337 --> 01:00:34,339
- [insects chirring]
- [birdsong]

1261
01:00:54,943 --> 01:00:57,946
[♪ soft upbeat music playing]

1262
01:01:08,790 --> 01:01:11,001
All of that's not gonna
fit in that fridge.

1263
01:01:11,042 --> 01:01:13,003
You're gonna need to transfer
everything out of there

1264
01:01:13,044 --> 01:01:14,546
to the one in the garage.

1265
01:01:18,800 --> 01:01:20,510
[sighs]

1266
01:01:26,057 --> 01:01:27,434
I was thinking it might be nice

1267
01:01:27,475 --> 01:01:29,686
to display more of Henry's art
at the reception.

1268
01:01:29,728 --> 01:01:31,980
- That's a great idea.
- We rent a storage unit.

1269
01:01:32,022 --> 01:01:33,607
I wrote down the address.

1270
01:01:33,648 --> 01:01:35,901
Okay, would you, um,
mind putting it on the...

1271
01:01:39,654 --> 01:01:40,989
[door thudding]

1272
01:01:42,741 --> 01:01:44,117
Got it.

1273
01:01:44,159 --> 01:01:45,493
[garage door sliding]

1274
01:02:29,788 --> 01:02:32,791
[♪ gentle music playing]

1275
01:03:06,074 --> 01:03:08,034
[insects chirring]

1276
01:03:14,249 --> 01:03:15,333
[phone chimes]

1277
01:03:23,842 --> 01:03:25,093
[exhales slowly]

1278
01:03:26,428 --> 01:03:28,388
- [light knocking]
- [Jamie] Diane?

1279
01:03:28,430 --> 01:03:29,514
I made dinner.

1280
01:03:52,871 --> 01:03:53,872
[cutlery clattering]

1281
01:03:57,959 --> 01:03:59,127
[Jamie sniffling]

1282
01:04:00,211 --> 01:04:01,629
[Diane clearing throat]

1283
01:04:01,671 --> 01:04:03,048
The bartenders confirmed.

1284
01:04:04,299 --> 01:04:07,635
And they can help with, um,
with cleanup, too.

1285
01:04:07,677 --> 01:04:08,678
Good.

1286
01:04:12,640 --> 01:04:14,351
So, what time did you
want to leave for the...

1287
01:04:14,392 --> 01:04:16,936
I got a text from Tyler
a while ago.

1288
01:04:16,978 --> 01:04:17,979
Mm.

1289
01:04:19,481 --> 01:04:21,691
- Okay.
- He said he was thinking of me

1290
01:04:21,733 --> 01:04:24,319
and apologized
that he couldn't be here.

1291
01:04:24,361 --> 01:04:27,113
But he's sending thoughts
and prayers for tomorrow.

1292
01:04:27,155 --> 01:04:29,699
He also said he would check in
when he got back.

1293
01:04:30,742 --> 01:04:32,785
- That's great.
- Yeah, it's great

1294
01:04:32,786 --> 01:04:35,497
if you just ignore the fact
that it's all a lie.

1295
01:04:36,373 --> 01:04:38,625
Oh, and he sent
one last sentence.

1296
01:04:38,666 --> 01:04:41,503
His usual.
"Miss you and love you, Mom."

1297
01:04:43,505 --> 01:04:46,633
You get that one, too.
I remember reading that.

1298
01:04:46,674 --> 01:04:49,677
At first, I thought it peculiar
for a boss and an employee...

1299
01:04:49,719 --> 01:04:52,347
- Who became friends.
- Well, decided on friends, yes,

1300
01:04:52,389 --> 01:04:54,557
but that's why I said at first,
I found it peculiar.

1301
01:04:54,599 --> 01:04:56,309
And then I thought, well,

1302
01:04:56,351 --> 01:04:57,894
you do have
this history together.

1303
01:04:58,895 --> 01:05:01,898
And this "you loving him,
him conflicted" journey.

1304
01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:04,567
So, yes, it's not strange
that along the way

1305
01:05:04,609 --> 01:05:06,694
you would start saying
that to each other.

1306
01:05:06,736 --> 01:05:09,030
It's how we end our texts.
I think it's nice.

1307
01:05:09,072 --> 01:05:11,366
[Diane] Of course, it's sweet.
And it works.

1308
01:05:13,034 --> 01:05:15,203
I know Tyler won't check in
when he gets back.

1309
01:05:15,245 --> 01:05:17,997
Eventually, yes,
but I imagine it'll be a month

1310
01:05:18,039 --> 01:05:19,833
before I hear from him.

1311
01:05:19,874 --> 01:05:21,876
That's what our relationship
has become.

1312
01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:25,505
Just large chasms of time pass
with no communication,

1313
01:05:25,547 --> 01:05:28,383
and then I'll get the
arbitrary text, "Checking in."

1314
01:05:29,384 --> 01:05:31,177
Quite literally,
that's how it starts.

1315
01:05:31,219 --> 01:05:33,012
"Checking in."

1316
01:05:33,054 --> 01:05:34,389
And of course,
I respond immediately,

1317
01:05:34,431 --> 01:05:35,682
like a mother should,

1318
01:05:35,723 --> 01:05:37,684
and we check in
with one another.

1319
01:05:37,725 --> 01:05:40,270
And at the end of it,
"Miss you, love you, Mom."

1320
01:05:41,229 --> 01:05:43,231
And like I said, it works.

1321
01:05:43,273 --> 01:05:45,190
It's how he keeps me
on the hook.

1322
01:05:45,191 --> 01:05:48,361
It's just enough to make
me feel like he still needs me.

1323
01:05:48,403 --> 01:05:50,864
Just enough to keep me
from giving up completely

1324
01:05:50,905 --> 01:05:52,866
and letting go for good.

1325
01:05:52,907 --> 01:05:54,284
And I imagine for Tyler,

1326
01:05:54,325 --> 01:05:56,703
just enough
to ease his own guilt,

1327
01:05:56,744 --> 01:05:58,997
the guilt he feels
for hurting me.

1328
01:06:01,749 --> 01:06:03,001
For hurting us?

1329
01:06:04,169 --> 01:06:05,462
[Jamie] I know it to be genuine.

1330
01:06:06,337 --> 01:06:07,922
I didn't say it wasn't genuine.

1331
01:06:07,964 --> 01:06:10,216
I just think it's more
complicated than that.

1332
01:06:10,258 --> 01:06:12,093
Do you not find it
more complicated

1333
01:06:12,135 --> 01:06:14,053
when you read his
"Miss you, love you," in a text?

1334
01:06:14,095 --> 01:06:15,430
And when you have
to type it back,

1335
01:06:15,472 --> 01:06:17,223
it doesn't feel
confusing to you,

1336
01:06:17,265 --> 01:06:19,392
after everything that's happened
between the two of you?

1337
01:06:19,434 --> 01:06:20,602
[Jamie] No.

1338
01:06:20,643 --> 01:06:22,270
[Diane] Even after you shared
your feelings

1339
01:06:22,312 --> 01:06:23,771
and he wasn't there yet?

1340
01:06:23,813 --> 01:06:26,065
Even after he was
seemingly there

1341
01:06:26,107 --> 01:06:27,650
and then took it all back?

1342
01:06:29,152 --> 01:06:30,278
No.

1343
01:06:30,320 --> 01:06:31,738
Well, I guess...
[chuckles]

1344
01:06:31,779 --> 01:06:33,907
I guess I'm just speaking
for myself here.

1345
01:06:33,948 --> 01:06:37,243
I just find it hard to imagine
how genuine it can be

1346
01:06:37,285 --> 01:06:39,078
when my son refuses to come,

1347
01:06:39,120 --> 01:06:41,789
and yet texts,
"Miss you, love you, Mom."

1348
01:06:41,831 --> 01:06:43,249
Now, of course,
he's under the assumption

1349
01:06:43,291 --> 01:06:45,335
that the lie
didn't get screwed up.

1350
01:06:45,376 --> 01:06:47,754
As far as Tyler is concerned,

1351
01:06:47,795 --> 01:06:50,465
he thinks I believe he's been
prohibited from coming

1352
01:06:50,507 --> 01:06:52,800
due to circumstances.

1353
01:06:52,842 --> 01:06:55,470
So, for Tyler,
he's comforted by the fact

1354
01:06:55,512 --> 01:06:57,764
that his mom should have
no doubt that he misses her

1355
01:06:57,805 --> 01:07:01,309
and loves her on the day before
she buries her second husband.

1356
01:07:01,976 --> 01:07:04,020
But then, of course,
you made up his mind for him.

1357
01:07:04,062 --> 01:07:06,481
So, yeah, who the fuck knows what
"Miss you, love you," means anymore?

1358
01:07:06,523 --> 01:07:08,858
- I... I didn't make up his mind.
- No, you gave him an out.

1359
01:07:08,900 --> 01:07:11,319
No, he asked my opinion.
He didn't have to take it.

1360
01:07:11,361 --> 01:07:13,738
[Diane] And why was your opinion
for him not to come?

1361
01:07:14,572 --> 01:07:16,157
I didn't tell him not to come.

1362
01:07:16,199 --> 01:07:18,618
[Diane] Yes, you told him that
it wasn't his responsibility...

1363
01:07:18,660 --> 01:07:21,120
No. No, I said
he had a responsibility

1364
01:07:21,162 --> 01:07:22,997
- to himself.
- And I told you

1365
01:07:23,039 --> 01:07:25,041
- he had a responsibility...
- Yes, that he had a responsibility to you.

1366
01:07:25,083 --> 01:07:26,834
- ...to me.
- Yes, yeah, but okay.

1367
01:07:26,876 --> 01:07:28,627
Diane, are we really
gonna do this?

1368
01:07:28,628 --> 01:07:31,506
Are we really gonna break down
the subtext of a text?

1369
01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:34,300
Yes, because now
I'm ready for my explanation.

1370
01:07:34,342 --> 01:07:36,469
- You're not gonna like it.
- Yeah, I hate it so far.

1371
01:07:36,511 --> 01:07:39,389
I did what I thought was right,
knowing what I know.

1372
01:07:39,430 --> 01:07:41,349
- Knowing what?
- How Tyler feels

1373
01:07:41,391 --> 01:07:43,476
about everything that happened
between the two of you.

1374
01:07:43,518 --> 01:07:44,686
Which is what?

1375
01:07:44,727 --> 01:07:46,354
[sighs]

1376
01:07:46,396 --> 01:07:47,813
[Diane] Oh, but of course.

1377
01:07:47,814 --> 01:07:50,316
Now, we're back to your
airtight cone of silence.

1378
01:07:50,358 --> 01:07:52,151
Fine, I'll lift it from my side.

1379
01:07:52,193 --> 01:07:54,821
I cheated on Tyler's dad
with Henry.

1380
01:07:54,862 --> 01:07:56,989
- I assume that you know?
- Yes.

1381
01:07:56,990 --> 01:07:59,242
And did he also share with you
that his dad and I

1382
01:07:59,284 --> 01:08:01,369
had fallen out of love
long before that,

1383
01:08:01,411 --> 01:08:03,329
and that his dad
had cheated as well?

1384
01:08:03,371 --> 01:08:05,665
- Y-Yes, but...
- But his affair was fleeting

1385
01:08:05,707 --> 01:08:07,375
and I fell in love
with mine, yes?

1386
01:08:08,751 --> 01:08:10,086
- Yes.
- Yes.

1387
01:08:10,128 --> 01:08:11,379
That's my high crime.

1388
01:08:12,130 --> 01:08:14,924
Well, I think for Tyler,
knowing how hurt his dad was,

1389
01:08:14,966 --> 01:08:18,011
and then with Tyler's dad
passing away,

1390
01:08:18,052 --> 01:08:19,846
I think that there is
an allegiance to his father

1391
01:08:19,887 --> 01:08:21,723
that makes it
difficult for Tyler to...

1392
01:08:21,764 --> 01:08:24,726
- Look, Dia... your son struggles with how...
- [scoffs] My son struggles.

1393
01:08:24,767 --> 01:08:27,270
- [chair scraping]
- Oh, my God. Lost my appetite.

1394
01:08:27,312 --> 01:08:29,939
- Diane, just let me...
- No, no!

1395
01:08:29,981 --> 01:08:32,233
No, Tyler did have
an allegiance to his dad,

1396
01:08:32,275 --> 01:08:34,902
and still does to this day,
apparently.

1397
01:08:34,944 --> 01:08:36,029
[smacks countertop]

1398
01:08:36,070 --> 01:08:37,238
[groaning]

1399
01:08:38,239 --> 01:08:42,201
After his father and I divorced,
despite both cheating,

1400
01:08:42,243 --> 01:08:44,203
despite our anger
and differences,

1401
01:08:44,245 --> 01:08:46,039
the one thing we agreed upon

1402
01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:48,458
was that our priority
was to be Tyler.

1403
01:08:48,499 --> 01:08:50,418
He should know
nothing from us but love,

1404
01:08:50,460 --> 01:08:52,295
and that included to each other.

1405
01:08:52,337 --> 01:08:53,379
[groaning]

1406
01:08:53,421 --> 01:08:54,380
[bowl clatters]

1407
01:08:54,422 --> 01:08:55,548
I hate that I'm
telling you this!

1408
01:08:55,590 --> 01:08:57,967
- You don't have to tell me.
- Yes, I do!

1409
01:08:58,009 --> 01:08:59,427
[Diane whimpers]

1410
01:09:04,182 --> 01:09:07,225
Around the time Henry
and I moved in together,

1411
01:09:07,226 --> 01:09:09,771
when things were clearly
not fleeting for us,

1412
01:09:09,812 --> 01:09:12,357
Tyler's dad began
to struggle with that.

1413
01:09:13,316 --> 01:09:16,735
One weekend, when Tyler
was at his dad's,

1414
01:09:16,736 --> 01:09:18,946
you want to know what he put
in our son's head?

1415
01:09:20,490 --> 01:09:24,077
"You're on my side.
You're on your dad's side."

1416
01:09:24,118 --> 01:09:26,663
You know what that does to a
nine-year-old to draw that line?

1417
01:09:26,704 --> 01:09:28,331
To suggest that love
is conditional?

1418
01:09:28,373 --> 01:09:30,249
Because I can tell you
from experience,

1419
01:09:30,291 --> 01:09:32,335
you do not come back from that.

1420
01:09:32,377 --> 01:09:34,253
The damage is done.

1421
01:09:34,295 --> 01:09:36,923
And I only came to know of what
his dad said a few years later

1422
01:09:36,964 --> 01:09:39,300
when Tyler was acting out
and I sent him to his room.

1423
01:09:39,342 --> 01:09:41,344
He used his dad's words
against me.

1424
01:09:41,386 --> 01:09:42,929
"I'm on dad's side."

1425
01:09:43,930 --> 01:09:46,516
But truthfully, I was suspicious
that something had been said

1426
01:09:46,557 --> 01:09:49,310
from the moment my nine-year-old
came home after that weekend,

1427
01:09:49,352 --> 01:09:53,106
because the son who left
was not the son who came back.

1428
01:09:53,147 --> 01:09:56,651
Not the way he looked at me,
the way he hugged me.

1429
01:09:56,693 --> 01:09:58,820
He would bristle at my touch.

1430
01:09:58,861 --> 01:10:02,323
A-And Henry, Henry was a pariah
from that day on.

1431
01:10:02,365 --> 01:10:03,533
[groaning]

1432
01:10:04,492 --> 01:10:06,160
I'm sorry, Diane.
I didn't know.

1433
01:10:06,202 --> 01:10:07,453
And you wouldn't have,
not from me.

1434
01:10:07,495 --> 01:10:10,331
I never told anyone, until now.

1435
01:10:10,373 --> 01:10:13,042
Not even Henry.
Even after I came to know

1436
01:10:13,084 --> 01:10:14,961
what his dad had said,
I never confronted him.

1437
01:10:15,002 --> 01:10:19,340
Never uttered a negative thing
about him in retaliation.

1438
01:10:19,382 --> 01:10:23,302
Even as Tyler used those words
against me, I stayed calm.

1439
01:10:23,344 --> 01:10:26,472
All I said was,
"Well, I hope you know

1440
01:10:26,514 --> 01:10:28,349
that Henry and I
love you, too."

1441
01:10:30,351 --> 01:10:34,105
Even after Tyler refused to let
me go to his dad's funeral.

1442
01:10:35,356 --> 01:10:38,192
[sobbing] I mean,
this is a man I loved,

1443
01:10:38,234 --> 01:10:39,569
I still love!

1444
01:10:39,610 --> 01:10:41,738
Even then, I respected
my son's feelings,

1445
01:10:41,779 --> 01:10:46,200
and I sat out on that patio,
and I grieved his dad alone.

1446
01:10:47,243 --> 01:10:49,495
From the moment my nine-year-old
came home after that weekend,

1447
01:10:49,537 --> 01:10:51,497
I have shown him
nothing but love,

1448
01:10:51,539 --> 01:10:53,207
because I knew he needed it.

1449
01:10:53,249 --> 01:10:56,169
I knew he wanted it,
and still does to this day.

1450
01:10:56,210 --> 01:10:59,005
It just... it just comes
with a price.

1451
01:10:59,046 --> 01:11:01,591
But I have never, never stopped
being his mom.

1452
01:11:01,632 --> 01:11:03,885
I've... I have stayed his mom.

1453
01:11:03,926 --> 01:11:05,720
And... and against
my better judgment,

1454
01:11:05,762 --> 01:11:07,388
I have kept helping Tyler

1455
01:11:07,430 --> 01:11:09,724
through any doorway
he struggles with.

1456
01:11:11,225 --> 01:11:13,770
Now, as for you,

1457
01:11:13,811 --> 01:11:16,689
just so you're clear
going forward with your life,

1458
01:11:16,731 --> 01:11:19,609
just so you come
to truly understand...

1459
01:11:20,902 --> 01:11:23,780
<i>that</i> is a cone of silence.

1460
01:11:26,991 --> 01:11:30,578
Diane, I'm very sorry
for what you went through,

1461
01:11:30,620 --> 01:11:32,288
and I'm sorry for what
you're going through.

1462
01:11:32,330 --> 01:11:33,873
But again, I didn't know.

1463
01:11:33,915 --> 01:11:37,043
What about what we've come
to know, what we've shared here?

1464
01:11:37,084 --> 01:11:39,086
- Going on that alone, why not tell Tyler...
- Diane, I...

1465
01:11:39,128 --> 01:11:40,546
You could have
texted him yourself,

1466
01:11:40,588 --> 01:11:42,465
but instead, you chose
to stay angry.

1467
01:11:42,507 --> 01:11:44,634
Yeah, and you chose
to be on his side.

1468
01:11:44,675 --> 01:11:48,054
Oh, my God.
I love that you refuse to listen

1469
01:11:48,095 --> 01:11:50,765
to anything that doesn't allow
you to stay the victim.

1470
01:11:50,807 --> 01:11:52,934
- I'm just trying to understand.
- What you need to do

1471
01:11:52,975 --> 01:11:55,561
is recognize that I have
been here for six days

1472
01:11:55,603 --> 01:11:58,397
helping you, enduring you,
taking dagger after dagger.

1473
01:11:58,439 --> 01:11:59,649
What about the daggers
I've taken?

1474
01:11:59,690 --> 01:12:00,900
Well, I'm not disputing that,

1475
01:12:00,942 --> 01:12:02,235
but I'm not the one
who threw them.

1476
01:12:02,276 --> 01:12:03,986
- Yes, you did!
- No, not the ones

1477
01:12:04,028 --> 01:12:06,239
that hurt you most.
I'm not your son, Diane.

1478
01:12:06,280 --> 01:12:07,657
No. You're worse.

1479
01:12:07,698 --> 01:12:09,575
- You're in love with him.
- Oh, my God.

1480
01:12:09,617 --> 01:12:11,619
- Diane, I told you...
- No. Nope.

1481
01:12:12,537 --> 01:12:14,580
- Fuck your story.
- Wow.

1482
01:12:14,622 --> 01:12:16,249
Wow, fuck my story.

1483
01:12:16,290 --> 01:12:18,751
You are so clearly
still in love with my son.

1484
01:12:18,793 --> 01:12:20,253
- I am not.
- Had I known that,

1485
01:12:20,294 --> 01:12:22,338
I would have relieved you
on day one.

1486
01:12:22,380 --> 01:12:23,464
Well, then, relieve me now.

1487
01:12:23,506 --> 01:12:24,757
- Please.
- And give you the satisfaction

1488
01:12:24,799 --> 01:12:26,467
of just walking away?
Hell, no!

1489
01:12:26,509 --> 01:12:28,261
Yeah, you wouldn't do that.
And you know what, Diane?

1490
01:12:28,302 --> 01:12:30,763
- [scoffs] - You wouldn't have
because you've enjoyed all of this.

1491
01:12:30,805 --> 01:12:32,974
- Goading me, tormenting me.
- [scoffs] I most certainly have not.

1492
01:12:33,015 --> 01:12:35,142
Please, you get off
on your power.

1493
01:12:35,184 --> 01:12:37,270
I have a right to get off!

1494
01:12:37,311 --> 01:12:39,981
- And had I known how miserable
this was all gonna be... - Shit.

1495
01:12:40,022 --> 01:12:42,316
...I never would have offered
to come here in the first place!

1496
01:12:44,694 --> 01:12:45,695
"Offered"?

1497
01:12:46,988 --> 01:12:48,948
- What do you mean, "offered"?
- Okay, wait.

1498
01:12:48,990 --> 01:12:51,617
You had to come,
you had no choice.

1499
01:12:51,659 --> 01:12:54,120
- Yes, but...
- This is your job.

1500
01:12:54,161 --> 01:12:57,123
You have to be here.
You said that many times.

1501
01:12:57,164 --> 01:13:00,126
- Just hold on!
- Adamantly! Did... did my son

1502
01:13:00,167 --> 01:13:02,044
- even ask you to come?
- Hold on.

1503
01:13:02,086 --> 01:13:04,463
Did Tyler even ask you

1504
01:13:04,505 --> 01:13:05,965
- to come, ever?
- It's complicated!

1505
01:13:06,007 --> 01:13:07,008
[Diane] Unbelievable.

1506
01:13:07,842 --> 01:13:10,136
[Jamie] Okay, okay.
Tyler called.

1507
01:13:10,177 --> 01:13:12,471
He was stuck overseas,
he was distraught,

1508
01:13:12,513 --> 01:13:13,973
- he didn't know who else to call.
- Mm-hmm.

1509
01:13:14,015 --> 01:13:16,684
He apologized for calling,
admitted it was awkward.

1510
01:13:16,726 --> 01:13:18,978
- Why would it be awkward?
- Because it had been a while

1511
01:13:19,020 --> 01:13:20,646
- since we had spoken, but...
- Wait.

1512
01:13:20,688 --> 01:13:23,858
How long ago did Tyler break
your heart and you walked away?

1513
01:13:26,944 --> 01:13:29,154
- About two weeks, but...
- Two weeks?!

1514
01:13:29,155 --> 01:13:31,157
- Yes, it was earlier than...
- There is no way

1515
01:13:31,198 --> 01:13:32,909
- you have moved on.
- Yes, I have.

1516
01:13:32,950 --> 01:13:35,411
In fact, this road trip,
this longer trip,

1517
01:13:35,453 --> 01:13:38,581
that's me moving to New York.
I'm not even going back to LA.

1518
01:13:38,623 --> 01:13:41,375
Hold on, hold on.
So, the day you walked away

1519
01:13:41,417 --> 01:13:43,669
to give yourself time,
you actually quit?

1520
01:13:43,711 --> 01:13:45,504
- Yes.
- Then, why not own that

1521
01:13:45,546 --> 01:13:47,006
from the minute
you walked in my door?

1522
01:13:47,048 --> 01:13:48,257
- Why lie to me?
- It was just...

1523
01:13:48,299 --> 01:13:50,217
"This is my job.
I have to be here."

1524
01:13:50,259 --> 01:13:52,762
- It was just easier.
- Yes, I imagine it was,

1525
01:13:52,803 --> 01:13:54,430
so much easier
to portray yourself

1526
01:13:54,472 --> 01:13:56,390
as this self-righteous victim

1527
01:13:56,432 --> 01:13:57,850
- who's had to endure...
- No, I decided

1528
01:13:57,892 --> 01:13:59,518
to put aside everything

1529
01:13:59,560 --> 01:14:01,562
and take the high road, Diane.

1530
01:14:01,604 --> 01:14:03,105
- Oh.
- So that Tyler could see,

1531
01:14:03,147 --> 01:14:05,191
despite all of the hurt
I endured,

1532
01:14:05,232 --> 01:14:07,234
I would still be there for him.

1533
01:14:07,276 --> 01:14:09,028
And that I could move on
with my life

1534
01:14:09,070 --> 01:14:11,614
knowing I was leaving Tyler
behind seeing that about me.

1535
01:14:14,742 --> 01:14:16,285
[scoffs]

1536
01:14:16,327 --> 01:14:18,537
Yes. Yes.

1537
01:14:18,579 --> 01:14:21,958
- Yes. That is why.
- What?

1538
01:14:21,999 --> 01:14:23,793
- You resent him.
- Oh, plea... No.

1539
01:14:23,834 --> 01:14:25,711
You're not just in love
with my son.

1540
01:14:25,753 --> 01:14:27,212
You resent him.

1541
01:14:27,213 --> 01:14:28,881
- I am taking the high road.
- Which is where you go

1542
01:14:28,923 --> 01:14:31,050
when you want people
to feel like shit.

1543
01:14:31,092 --> 01:14:32,718
Don't tell me
about the high road.

1544
01:14:32,760 --> 01:14:34,887
I wrote the book
on taking the high road.

1545
01:14:34,929 --> 01:14:36,639
You want Tyler to feel guilty.

1546
01:14:36,681 --> 01:14:38,599
- Fine. Yes, I do.
- [scoffs]

1547
01:14:38,641 --> 01:14:41,560
- But that's not why I came.
- It's exactly why you came.

1548
01:14:41,602 --> 01:14:43,479
You want Tyler to miss you.

1549
01:14:43,521 --> 01:14:45,064
You want Tyler to love you.

1550
01:14:45,106 --> 01:14:46,732
- You won't realize...
- I'm moving on with my life...

1551
01:14:46,774 --> 01:14:48,818
Do not lie anymore!

1552
01:14:49,652 --> 01:14:52,571
Especially to someone
who knows exactly what it means

1553
01:14:52,613 --> 01:14:55,074
to love and resent my son.

1554
01:14:55,116 --> 01:14:57,742
And when we love
and resent the same person,

1555
01:14:57,743 --> 01:14:59,829
that's when they control us
the most.

1556
01:15:00,705 --> 01:15:03,958
Jamie, you will always
be everything Tyler needs,

1557
01:15:04,000 --> 01:15:06,419
everything he desires
in a boyfriend.

1558
01:15:06,460 --> 01:15:08,421
But you will never be his type.

1559
01:15:08,462 --> 01:15:11,132
He will never want you
the way you want him to.

1560
01:15:15,511 --> 01:15:18,639
And he will never be the son
that you want him to be.

1561
01:15:20,850 --> 01:15:23,936
You might not call Tyler
a selfish, ungrateful dickhead

1562
01:15:23,978 --> 01:15:25,646
to his face, but he can feel it.

1563
01:15:25,688 --> 01:15:28,107
He can see it in your face,
he can hear it in your voice.

1564
01:15:28,149 --> 01:15:30,109
He can read it in your texts.

1565
01:15:30,151 --> 01:15:32,194
But yet, you're floored

1566
01:15:32,236 --> 01:15:34,447
that he doesn't want to come
running back to your arms.

1567
01:15:34,488 --> 01:15:37,449
- I am his mother!
- Well, then fight like one!

1568
01:15:37,450 --> 01:15:38,951
Fight for him instead
of tearing me down,

1569
01:15:38,993 --> 01:15:40,161
which is easier, right?

1570
01:15:40,202 --> 01:15:41,871
It's easier to make the pain
about anything...

1571
01:15:41,912 --> 01:15:42,955
anyone but you.

1572
01:15:42,997 --> 01:15:44,999
- Get out!
- Happily, thank you!

1573
01:15:45,958 --> 01:15:49,961
But you know what, Diane?
You are where you are by choice.

1574
01:15:49,962 --> 01:15:52,965
And you made that choice the
second that nine-year-old came home

1575
01:15:53,007 --> 01:15:55,134
and you chose not to fight.

1576
01:15:55,176 --> 01:15:56,969
And you had
every right to fight.

1577
01:15:57,011 --> 01:15:58,971
You had every right
to march up to his father

1578
01:15:59,013 --> 01:16:00,639
and say, "What the hell
were you thinking?"

1579
01:16:00,681 --> 01:16:03,350
But no.
Instead, you chose resentment.

1580
01:16:03,392 --> 01:16:06,395
And from what I can tell,
you always choose resentment.

1581
01:16:06,437 --> 01:16:09,148
You choose resentment
of... of... of New Mexico,

1582
01:16:09,190 --> 01:16:11,317
of... of... of Kathy's
shitty succulent,

1583
01:16:11,358 --> 01:16:13,319
of... of... of Judith's dead dog,

1584
01:16:13,360 --> 01:16:15,488
of the goddamn owl, and me!

1585
01:16:15,529 --> 01:16:17,364
- As I should!
- Oh, oh, yes.

1586
01:16:17,406 --> 01:16:20,492
No, I am your holy grail
of resentment.

1587
01:16:20,493 --> 01:16:23,370
And what an easy place to put
all of your anger and resentment,

1588
01:16:23,412 --> 01:16:25,414
the week you have to bury
your second husband,

1589
01:16:25,456 --> 01:16:27,083
instead of facing the ugly truth

1590
01:16:27,124 --> 01:16:28,834
that you're angry
and resentful of Henry

1591
01:16:28,876 --> 01:16:31,504
- for having to bury him.
- How dare you!

1592
01:16:31,545 --> 01:16:33,339
Don't lie to me, Diane.

1593
01:16:34,048 --> 01:16:36,175
Especially to somebody
who knows what it feels like

1594
01:16:36,217 --> 01:16:39,095
to spend years of your life
watching the only people

1595
01:16:39,136 --> 01:16:40,971
you have left
in the world leave.

1596
01:16:43,432 --> 01:16:46,977
And we do, we resent them
because we need them here.

1597
01:16:48,979 --> 01:16:51,398
Because we don't know
who we are without them.

1598
01:16:52,650 --> 01:16:55,861
[sniffles]
You said it yourself, Diane.

1599
01:16:55,903 --> 01:16:57,738
You hate how you were
with Henry.

1600
01:16:57,780 --> 01:16:59,365
You hated him
for putting you there.

1601
01:16:59,406 --> 01:17:01,617
And yet this whole time,
you had somebody looking at you

1602
01:17:01,659 --> 01:17:03,034
with nothing but love,
begging you

1603
01:17:03,035 --> 01:17:04,787
to get out of a place
you refuse to leave.

1604
01:17:05,579 --> 01:17:08,040
A place that you...
you choose to be consumed

1605
01:17:08,082 --> 01:17:10,209
by the love you're not getting
from a son who left

1606
01:17:10,251 --> 01:17:12,294
rather than grieving
the loss of a man

1607
01:17:12,336 --> 01:17:14,672
who knew everything
about you and stayed.

1608
01:17:27,268 --> 01:17:28,269
[sniffling]

1609
01:17:32,106 --> 01:17:33,149
[sniffling]

1610
01:17:36,026 --> 01:17:39,029
[♪ upbeat dramatic music
playing]

1611
01:17:51,333 --> 01:17:52,793
Here's the sun.

1612
01:17:59,800 --> 01:18:01,135
There's the fucking sky!

1613
01:18:03,304 --> 01:18:06,307
And there's the goddamn owl.

1614
01:18:09,518 --> 01:18:12,771
Bringing back the fucking cat!

1615
01:18:12,813 --> 01:18:13,814
[brush clattering]

1616
01:18:16,525 --> 01:18:18,527
[breathing heavily]

1617
01:18:20,404 --> 01:18:21,864
- I didn't mean to...
- [scoffs]

1618
01:18:22,740 --> 01:18:23,824
Let's be done.

1619
01:18:25,868 --> 01:18:28,871
[♪ gentle music playing]

1620
01:18:31,582 --> 01:18:32,833
[door closes]

1621
01:18:35,586 --> 01:18:37,171
[insects chirring]

1622
01:18:40,174 --> 01:18:43,177
[♪ gentle music
continues playing]

1623
01:19:13,749 --> 01:19:15,918
[Henry] <i>Hey, lady.
Just got out of church.</i>

1624
01:19:15,960 --> 01:19:18,003
<i>What are you doing?</i>

1625
01:19:18,045 --> 01:19:20,547
[Henry chuckles]
<i>I know that annoys you</i>

1626
01:19:20,589 --> 01:19:22,758
<i>- when I ask your voicemail questions.</i>
- [Diane chuckles]

1627
01:19:23,968 --> 01:19:25,678
<i>I, uh, I just wanted
to let you know</i>

1628
01:19:25,719 --> 01:19:27,554
<i>I'm gonna grab lunch
with a couple of friends,</i>

1629
01:19:27,596 --> 01:19:29,181
<i>and I'll walk home.</i>

1630
01:19:29,223 --> 01:19:31,725
<i>Oh, uh, in case I forget,</i>

1631
01:19:31,767 --> 01:19:33,352
<i>a newer member
of the congregation</i>

1632
01:19:33,394 --> 01:19:35,271
<i>asked me today how we met.</i>

1633
01:19:35,312 --> 01:19:37,022
<i>And I said,
"Well, we didn't meet.</i>

1634
01:19:37,064 --> 01:19:38,482
<i>Diane discovered me."</i>

1635
01:19:39,483 --> 01:19:41,068
<i>Now, how sweet of me was that?</i>

1636
01:19:42,486 --> 01:19:44,238
<i>Alright, I love you.
I'll see you soon.</i>

1637
01:19:46,240 --> 01:19:48,450
<i>Oh, uh, uh, one more thing.</i>

1638
01:19:48,492 --> 01:19:50,911
<i>What are you doing?</i>
[Henry chuckles]

1639
01:19:53,956 --> 01:19:56,959
[♪ gentle music
continues playing]

1640
01:20:04,967 --> 01:20:06,969
[birdsong]

1641
01:20:27,031 --> 01:20:30,034
[♪ gentle music
continues playing]

1642
01:21:21,001 --> 01:21:27,007
[choir singing] <i>♪ Just
to take Him at his word ♪</i>

1643
01:21:27,049 --> 01:21:33,514
<i>♪ Just to rest
upon His promise ♪</i>

1644
01:21:33,555 --> 01:21:40,229
<i>♪ Just to know
thus saith the Lord ♪</i>

1645
01:21:43,065 --> 01:21:47,861
<i>♪ Jesus, Jesus,
how I trust Him ♪</i>

1646
01:21:49,196 --> 01:21:54,326
<i>♪ How I've proved Him
o'er and o'er ♪</i>

1647
01:21:55,077 --> 01:22:00,749
<i>♪ Jesus, Jesus,
precious Jesus ♪</i>

1648
01:22:00,791 --> 01:22:05,587
<i>♪ Oh, the grace
to trust Him ♪</i>

1649
01:22:05,629 --> 01:22:10,092
<i>♪ More ♪</i>

1650
01:22:10,134 --> 01:22:11,718
[softly] Good Lord.

1651
01:22:19,601 --> 01:22:20,811
[sighs]

1652
01:22:30,320 --> 01:22:32,531
I wasn't going to get up here.

1653
01:22:32,573 --> 01:22:34,867
Henry would not expect it.
[chuckles]

1654
01:22:34,908 --> 01:22:37,035
- [scattered chuckles]
- In fact, he's...

1655
01:22:37,077 --> 01:22:39,079
He's probably rolling
his eyes right now.

1656
01:22:40,456 --> 01:22:42,583
But he was clear about...

1657
01:22:44,126 --> 01:22:47,754
what he wanted... from me.
[chuckles]

1658
01:22:52,342 --> 01:22:54,428
And I need to finish that.

1659
01:23:01,268 --> 01:23:03,187
"The first, my last...

1660
01:23:04,771 --> 01:23:05,939
"my everything.

1661
01:23:07,858 --> 01:23:09,943
"And the answer
to all my dreams.

1662
01:23:12,821 --> 01:23:16,283
"You are my sun, my moon...

1663
01:23:17,284 --> 01:23:18,702
my guiding star."

1664
01:23:22,956 --> 01:23:23,957
Um...

1665
01:23:24,958 --> 01:23:27,169
<i>♪ My... my... ♪</i>

1666
01:23:30,672 --> 01:23:31,673
<i>♪ My ♪</i>

1667
01:23:32,633 --> 01:23:35,969
<i>♪ My, my kind of wonderful ♪</i>

1668
01:23:37,304 --> 01:23:39,848
<i>♪ That's what you are ♪</i>

1669
01:23:42,643 --> 01:23:46,480
<i>♪ I know there's only ♪</i>

1670
01:23:47,356 --> 01:23:48,982
<i>♪ One like you ♪</i>

1671
01:23:52,486 --> 01:23:53,820
<i>♪ There's no way ♪</i>

1672
01:23:54,988 --> 01:23:57,491
[choking up]
<i>♪ They could have made two ♪</i>

1673
01:24:00,911 --> 01:24:02,871
[breathing shakily]

1674
01:24:05,749 --> 01:24:09,545
"Yeah, you're all
I'm living for."

1675
01:24:12,673 --> 01:24:16,593
<i>♪ Your love
I'll keep for evermore ♪</i>

1676
01:24:18,428 --> 01:24:21,306
<i>- ♪ You're the first ♪
- ♪ You're the first ♪</i>

1677
01:24:21,348 --> 01:24:22,933
<i>- ♪ You're the last ♪
- ♪ You're the last ♪</i>

1678
01:24:24,351 --> 01:24:26,436
<i>♪ My everything ♪</i>

1679
01:24:28,855 --> 01:24:30,649
- You should join the choir.
- I can't, it's not really...

1680
01:24:30,691 --> 01:24:32,192
- Oh.
- That was beautiful.

1681
01:24:32,234 --> 01:24:34,194
- I'll see you back at the house.
You have the address? - Yeah.

1682
01:24:34,236 --> 01:24:35,862
Okay, great.

1683
01:24:35,904 --> 01:24:37,030
Jamie.

1684
01:24:38,782 --> 01:24:41,577
Can you grab Henry for me
and the floral arrangements?

1685
01:24:41,618 --> 01:24:43,912
They'll balk at that. Traditionally,
you're supposed to donate them

1686
01:24:43,954 --> 01:24:47,040
for Sunday services,
but just tell them God owes me.

1687
01:24:49,418 --> 01:24:51,378
Anyways, I'm bringing
my famous deviled eggs.

1688
01:24:51,420 --> 01:24:52,754
Oh, please don't.

1689
01:24:52,796 --> 01:24:54,047
[guest] It's right over here.

1690
01:24:54,089 --> 01:24:56,091
[people chattering]

1691
01:25:01,096 --> 01:25:04,099
[♪ soft classical music
playing over speakers]

1692
01:25:06,560 --> 01:25:08,854
Have you ever seen
so much joy on a canvas?

1693
01:25:08,895 --> 01:25:11,898
- [sighs] It's something.
- Mm.

1694
01:25:13,066 --> 01:25:16,028
- Oh, what's happening here?
- Oh, that's an owl

1695
01:25:16,069 --> 01:25:18,238
bringing back our cat,
Barnaby, so...

1696
01:25:18,280 --> 01:25:21,241
- Oh. My.
- So, like I said, just joy.

1697
01:25:23,076 --> 01:25:25,370
- It's beautiful.
- Aw.

1698
01:25:25,412 --> 01:25:28,290
It warms my heart
to hear you say that.

1699
01:25:28,332 --> 01:25:30,208
Because Henry
wanted you to have it.

1700
01:25:30,250 --> 01:25:31,710
- No.
- Yes.

1701
01:25:31,752 --> 01:25:33,545
- N-No.
- His time in the choir

1702
01:25:33,587 --> 01:25:35,172
was so precious to him.

1703
01:25:36,089 --> 01:25:38,050
So, maybe for the choir room.

1704
01:25:38,091 --> 01:25:39,760
Ohh.

1705
01:25:39,801 --> 01:25:41,136
- Yeah?
- Hmm.

1706
01:25:41,178 --> 01:25:43,180
It'll be like he's still there
singing with you.

1707
01:25:49,019 --> 01:25:50,020
Hmm.

1708
01:25:51,813 --> 01:25:52,939
[softly] God bless.

1709
01:25:57,110 --> 01:25:58,570
- Travel well.
- Thanks, Diane.

1710
01:25:58,612 --> 01:26:00,280
- Mm-hmm, bye.
- We're here if you need anything.

1711
01:26:11,291 --> 01:26:13,585
[Jamie] For some reason,
people thought they should bring

1712
01:26:13,627 --> 01:26:15,003
<i>more</i> casseroles.

1713
01:26:15,045 --> 01:26:16,338
[chuckles softly]
I saw that.

1714
01:26:17,631 --> 01:26:20,634
Uh, I washed these
and labeled whose whose.

1715
01:26:20,676 --> 01:26:23,512
And, um, I made a list
of what everybody brought,

1716
01:26:23,553 --> 01:26:25,472
in case you wanna send
thank you notes.

1717
01:26:26,723 --> 01:26:28,809
Yeah, that doesn't have
to be a thing.

1718
01:26:28,850 --> 01:26:29,851
[paper crumpling]

1719
01:26:31,895 --> 01:26:34,772
Well, I should probably
get on the road,

1720
01:26:34,773 --> 01:26:36,316
give you back your space.

1721
01:26:37,818 --> 01:26:39,319
Not much light left, so...

1722
01:26:40,320 --> 01:26:42,614
um, if you get tired, pull over.

1723
01:26:42,656 --> 01:26:43,657
Yes.

1724
01:26:45,534 --> 01:26:46,702
Uh, mm.

1725
01:26:48,328 --> 01:26:51,081
Maybe I'll see you
back in New York?

1726
01:26:52,833 --> 01:26:54,042
Maybe.

1727
01:26:59,256 --> 01:27:00,507
Goodbye, Jamie.

1728
01:27:03,552 --> 01:27:04,886
Goodbye, Diane.

1729
01:27:11,017 --> 01:27:12,018
Hm.

1730
01:27:15,856 --> 01:27:17,649
[sniffling softly]

1731
01:27:17,691 --> 01:27:19,693
[liquid pouring]

1732
01:27:50,432 --> 01:27:52,100
I know what's on the other side.

1733
01:27:53,643 --> 01:27:55,854
For me, I know
what's on the other side.

1734
01:27:55,896 --> 01:27:58,607
And I know it's better.

1735
01:28:00,108 --> 01:28:01,276
Or it <i>will</i> be better.

1736
01:28:03,987 --> 01:28:05,572
But I stay over here...

1737
01:28:06,948 --> 01:28:08,408
because I wanna fix it.

1738
01:28:10,744 --> 01:28:13,079
'Cause I need to fi...
I need to fix everything.

1739
01:28:15,791 --> 01:28:19,336
Over here, I...
I came out in my 20s.

1740
01:28:21,004 --> 01:28:23,215
And I had my own revolving door,

1741
01:28:23,256 --> 01:28:25,842
and I fell in love
and out of love...

1742
01:28:26,843 --> 01:28:27,844
many times.

1743
01:28:30,096 --> 01:28:31,223
Over here, my parents knew,

1744
01:28:31,264 --> 01:28:33,975
and they not only knew,
but they...

1745
01:28:35,352 --> 01:28:36,603
loved me for it.

1746
01:28:39,648 --> 01:28:40,941
And over here, Tyler...

1747
01:28:43,860 --> 01:28:45,237
It's not that I think
that he's right.

1748
01:28:45,278 --> 01:28:48,448
It's not that
I think that he's the one.

1749
01:28:53,495 --> 01:28:55,747
[choking up] Just over here,
I didn't waste so much time.

1750
01:28:55,789 --> 01:28:56,790
[chuckles softly]

1751
01:28:59,042 --> 01:29:00,502
I not only found love...

1752
01:29:02,045 --> 01:29:06,132
not only knew what love was,
I knew what to do with it.

1753
01:29:10,345 --> 01:29:11,680
But to go over there...

1754
01:29:14,474 --> 01:29:15,851
to step through...

1755
01:29:20,522 --> 01:29:23,525
Diane, that's to know that
none of that ever happened.

1756
01:29:25,694 --> 01:29:27,571
[sobbing]
It's just me over there.

1757
01:29:29,990 --> 01:29:31,449
I'm not saying that
for sympathy...

1758
01:29:31,491 --> 01:29:34,828
[sniffling] ...and I'm not
saying that to excuse.

1759
01:29:35,996 --> 01:29:36,997
Uh...

1760
01:29:40,500 --> 01:29:42,544
I just don't know
where to put it. [sobbing]

1761
01:29:46,548 --> 01:29:49,009
Jamie, your parents knew.

1762
01:29:50,218 --> 01:29:51,678
We always know.

1763
01:29:52,554 --> 01:29:54,514
And they knew who you were.

1764
01:29:55,515 --> 01:29:59,060
You were their son
who loved them to the end.

1765
01:30:05,609 --> 01:30:07,694
- [sobbing]
- [sighs]

1766
01:30:09,446 --> 01:30:12,449
[♪ gentle music playing]

1767
01:30:16,411 --> 01:30:18,079
[Diane sighs]

1768
01:30:18,121 --> 01:30:19,414
[phone chimes]

1769
01:30:19,456 --> 01:30:21,082
[Jamie exhales]

1770
01:30:25,545 --> 01:30:26,630
[Diane sighs]

1771
01:30:29,049 --> 01:30:30,383
"Checking in."

1772
01:30:30,425 --> 01:30:33,678
- [laughing]
- Sooner than expected.

1773
01:30:33,720 --> 01:30:35,931
Well, his timing
has always been terrible.

1774
01:30:35,972 --> 01:30:37,098
Or perfect.

1775
01:30:40,602 --> 01:30:41,728
Let him wait.

1776
01:30:42,938 --> 01:30:44,230
Until <i>I'm</i> ready.

1777
01:30:51,237 --> 01:30:52,781
You need to move on, Jamie.

1778
01:30:53,782 --> 01:30:56,034
- [stifled sobbing]
- It's time.

1779
01:30:56,076 --> 01:30:57,077
Yes.

1780
01:31:00,747 --> 01:31:01,748
Yes.

1781
01:31:04,751 --> 01:31:06,878
[Jamie sighs deeply]

1782
01:31:06,920 --> 01:31:08,380
And take that succulent.

1783
01:31:08,421 --> 01:31:10,298
It deserves to be saved.
[chuckles]

1784
01:31:10,340 --> 01:31:11,466
[chuckles softly]

1785
01:31:22,477 --> 01:31:25,105
[♪ "All of You"
by Alex Bloom playing]

1786
01:31:31,695 --> 01:31:36,866
<i>♪ Threads of our memories ♪</i>

1787
01:31:36,908 --> 01:31:42,122
<i>♪ Woven to tapestries ♪</i>

1788
01:31:42,163 --> 01:31:47,252
<i>♪ That flow
in the morning breeze ♪</i>

1789
01:31:47,293 --> 01:31:52,674
<i>♪ A sliver of light
shone through ♪</i>

1790
01:31:52,716 --> 01:31:57,804
<i>♪ The window that frames
our view ♪</i>

1791
01:31:57,846 --> 01:32:03,143
<i>♪ In my hands
aglow the hue ♪</i>

1792
01:32:03,184 --> 01:32:10,108
<i>♪ A bittersweet reverie ♪</i>

1793
01:32:10,150 --> 01:32:16,448
<i>♪ All of you, I'll hold ♪</i>

1794
01:32:16,489 --> 01:32:20,285
<i>♪ Inside of me, we'll grow ♪</i>

1795
01:32:20,326 --> 01:32:27,125
<i>♪ Forever be free ♪</i>

1796
01:32:27,167 --> 01:32:32,130
<i>♪ A great mystery ♪</i>

1797
01:32:32,172 --> 01:32:36,342
<i>♪ Of reality ♪</i>

1798
01:32:44,392 --> 01:32:48,146
{\an8}<i>♪ The sun has sung ♪</i>

1799
01:32:48,188 --> 01:32:53,818
{\an8}<i>♪ Its glorious glowing song ♪</i>

1800
01:32:53,860 --> 01:32:58,907
{\an8}<i>♪ Over that horizon ♪</i>

1801
01:32:58,948 --> 01:33:04,204
{\an8}<i>♪ Deep in my soul, I know ♪</i>

1802
01:33:04,245 --> 01:33:09,709
{\an8}<i>♪ Wherever I go, you go ♪</i>

1803
01:33:09,751 --> 01:33:16,257
{\an8}<i>♪ All of the roads
we roam lead home ♪</i>

1804
01:33:16,299 --> 01:33:22,889
{\an8}<i>♪ All of you, I'll hold ♪</i>

1805
01:33:22,931 --> 01:33:26,559
{\an8}<i>♪ Inside of me, we'll grow ♪</i>

1806
01:33:26,601 --> 01:33:33,399
{\an8}<i>♪ Forever be free ♪</i>

1807
01:33:33,441 --> 01:33:38,029
{\an8}<i>♪ A great mystery ♪</i>

1808
01:33:38,071 --> 01:33:42,951
{\an8}<i>♪ Of reality ♪</i>

1809
01:33:50,166 --> 01:33:55,547
{\an8}<i>♪ My deepest blue ocean ♪</i>

1810
01:33:55,588 --> 01:33:59,883
{\an8}<i>♪ My world, my truth ♪</i>

1811
01:33:59,884 --> 01:34:05,098
{\an8}<i>♪ Always the moon
means you ♪</i>

1812
01:34:05,140 --> 01:34:10,478
{\an8}<i>♪ The flower,
the root, the tree ♪</i>

1813
01:34:10,520 --> 01:34:15,900
{\an8}<i>♪ The frisson
of swishing leaves ♪</i>

1814
01:34:15,942 --> 01:34:22,490
{\an8}<i>♪ The stars and space
between the wonder ♪</i>

1815
01:34:22,532 --> 01:34:29,247
{\an8}<i>♪ All of you, I'll hold ♪</i>

1816
01:34:29,289 --> 01:34:32,667
{\an8}<i>♪ Inside of me, we'll grow ♪</i>

1817
01:34:32,709 --> 01:34:39,507
{\an8}<i>♪ Forever be free ♪</i>

1818
01:34:39,549 --> 01:34:44,470
{\an8}<i>♪ A great mystery ♪</i>

1819
01:34:44,512 --> 01:34:48,683
{\an8}<i>♪ Of reality ♪</i>